Ponder / Tree

I finally got a Tumblr account after wanting one for forever, so starting soon I won’t be very active here anymore. I’ll still respond to messages and maybe check in every once in a while, but I don’t imagine I’ll be posting on my message board or in any of my books too much anymore. All my stuff will stay up, though, nothing’s getting deleted, you’ll just hear my ramblings less often. 
          
          My Tumblr is @multi-fandom-trees by the way, follow me there if you’d like. 
          
          I hope you’re all doing alright, and if not I hope that things turn around soon. Love you, and thank you for all these wonderful years here <3

Younger me: Who are you?
          
          Me now: I’m you but I can say “what happened to me wasn’t right and I don’t deserve or need to sacrifice my life or well-being for a cause”
          
          Younger me:   :0

“ Nobody told me
          It would be lonely
          Maybe we’re going
          Where we’re supposed to be ”
          
           -  Lonely — Brad Sucks
          
          
          “ You’re my darling girl and dear
          I’ll hold you til I die
          But our time tonight is running low
          When the tide goes, so must I ”
          
           -  Earth & Sea — Lillie Blue Lennox and Penny Parker

Me, watching all of Bee and Puppycat only to find the rest won’t come out for two more years: nobody told me, it would be lonely

So I watched all of Bee and Puppycat today and apparently Lazy in Space doesn’t come out until 2022, so I am now very sad. 

Hey. Don’t give up. No matter how bad it feels right now, something might happen in two minutes, two seconds even, that makes things so much better, or even just a little better. Can it get worse? Yeah, always. Can it get better? Yeah, always! I believe in you, alright? 
          
          I hope you have a good day/night, but if you don’t that’s okay, just remember it’s still possible <3

Oh to be a Minecraft farmer tending to my wheat crops, bees buzzing by happily on their way from a flower back to their hive, my three white horses—Mmmmmmmmmissy, Shnorta, and Borth—whinnying in the distance, and my dog—Steve—and cat—Mr. Midnight—standing hairs loyally beside me. 
          
          Oh wait.
          
          I am. 

Please tell me at least one of you have watched the real-time Sonic Fandubs. It has consumed my every thought.

Also in case you couldn’t tell I crave attention but do not have the balls to ask for it

I’m going for a softer, sadder aesthetic again. It keeps calling me back. 
          
          Anyway, I’m trying to decide whether to post
          - poems (not my own, thankfully) without context
          - a bunch of Sonic 06 fandub quotes because “taken by the snap crackle pop” has been ringing through my head like two lines of a bad pop song
          - random facts about bees
          - a rant about me trying to figure out if I have autism and trying to navigate my relationships with other people when I don’t even understand my relationship with myself and constantly feeling like everything’s falling apart but I don’t even know what’s falling apart or how
          - oops guess I just did a mini rant oh well
          - insert that one thing with like the lines and parentheses that make a shrug
          - Master Chef, literally that’s it, just Master Chef