PonysFarmgirl1967
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Am I overreacting or overthinking? I’m pretty sure my mom just threatened to commit suicide because of me. She said “if your attitude doesn’t change, I’m going to have to remove myself from the situation permanently and your sisters will have to go without a mother.” She also used my depression against me and said that it’s my fault because of the fact that I talk about anime all the time because it’s my coping mechanism and it keeps me from having suicidal thoughts and that I snap too quickly when my sister does some bullshit then pretends to be sweet in front of her so I get in trouble. I don’t know what other way it can be taken but most of my self-loathing comes from things she says. I admit I have some attitude problems because of my own past experiences where people would take advantage of my kindness and naivety so I come off as snarky/rude and disrespectful but she makes it seem like it’s all my fault. I don’t even think I truly love her. I just say I do because everyone tells me, “oh you have to love your mother because she’s your mother” and all of that. Her tone also changes completely when she’s around my sisters opposed to when she’s around me and all of my self-loathing or low self esteem comes directly from her and her comments. She’s even made me terrified of having kids myself because I don’t think that I would be a good parent and I don’t want to end up like her. Am I overthinking this? I need advice
PonysFarmgirl1967
By “removing herself permanently” do you think she meant suicide because she’s been open with us about her mental health and that she has attempted before but am I just overthinking it or is it a fair assumption?
Almighty_spoonathin
@PonysFarmgirl1967 I personally do not think you are overreacting, I've had similar experiences like this. My mother threatened to walk out on my siblings and I, she uses my mental illnesses against me and uses my siblings against them at times. No parent should ever use mental illness on a child as an excuse. From what you say, it seems she plays favorites, but it depends of you and your siblings agree with what your mother does or if they don't pick up on he behavior. If you can try to talk to her, maybe suggest or try to get her in therapy, if she's not already in it and if she's open to the idea. I hope what I just said makes sense, and have a happy new year.
