My earlier stories have content that I am not proud of, and while I do not disown my stories, since they still have merit, I admit my mistakes once things are published for the final time. Most of this content can be boiled down to me forgetting details when writing crucial plot points. Most importantly, the Jamie/Tyrone/Zoe thing. I mostly only kept Zoe/Tyrone because it was part of the original unpublished story.
A version of the story where Zoe was less of a daughter to the family and more of a robotic assistant. If I could go back in time, and rewrite the story, I wouldn't. Because I can't in good mind alter my work after it is done, that goes against my philosophy. I acknowledge that a relationship between step-siblings is inherently immoral.
With that in mind, when I introduced the character of Jamie (a character who pre-exists my name change from Majora to Jami), they weren't supposed to be likable, they were supposed to be a creep, in love with their sibling. He was supposed to be in the wrong and eventually realizes that and gets disgusted by their previous actions towards Zoe.
This was amplified without me realizing it when I wrote the point that Zoe was a rebuilt version of their biological sister, something they were not aware of.
I published Eurona to take that first step and put myself out there. Sure, I filtered out a lot of my mistakes, and glad I did, but some mistakes were too important to be removed. Once a character's story is set in stone for me, I can't derail it.
Now that Eurona is over, I vow to never repeat my mistakes again. That is a promise. I never used to be afraid of taboos, because I never truly understood the "hush-hush" of it all. All topics deserve discussion, so that we may handle them properly. What is instinctual disgust, may not be the same for another who can't see the world through the same lens.
When you can't begin to understand society, but have to learn, you cannot see how you made a mistake until it is too late.
