Priiiii09

Hey everyone, i know many of you are wait for the next update of taming the devil. And I've had it written on my drafts..but I still couldn't publish it. I guess I'll tell you guys. December 2022, was my last attempt to suicide..that sadly my mom saw that night. I had this little burst out moment in front of my parents and then did this..my mom surprisingly came into my room..and that was the first time she has ever came at night. She said she was there just to check on me because I was crying alot and that was the first time they've seen me like that in years. I had harmed myself multiple times before that but that day was the most brutal..like i tried my best to give up on life..and when she came to my room I just wished for her to ignore and leave and when I saw her reaching for switch...I know I was done for..and i still remember the horror and panic on her face. I cried and told her about everything and she took me to the therepy the next day. It took months and I was getting better. And my therapist suggested me to start writing again. Well before I used to write in copies and papers but then I started writing and publishing here.

rainyrainfall

And when you get these negative thoughts of like self harming, then just think about your parents 
          	  Happy time, memories
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rainyrainfall

@Priiiii09 hi
          	  Please don't hesitate to talk to your parents they are our best advisors
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Priiiii09

@Priiiii09 But lately..that dreadful feeling is coming back. And this time I'm afraid of telling people..even my mom. I know I won't be harming myself..but I also know that my mental health is getting worse each day. 
          	  
          	  I've almost finished my college and about to get my bachelor's degree. And as soon as I get out of here, i would probably seek another therapist. But as of now, I'm barely holding myself in place. I know i shouldn't do this..but I can't help it. 
          	  
          	  Everything is too tiring and to exhausting. Even getting up from bed and eating feels like draining all my energy. But I still can't get myself to harm myself. Not after that night. 
          	  
          	  Soo I hope i would complete taming the devil and give you all a closer of this story. 
          	  
          	  And no..I've not given up on this book or my life yet..and i intend to finish this book no matter what..as for my life.. I don't have enough courage left in me to give up.
          	  
          	  Soo thank you all for your patience and reading this stupid rant of mine.
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Priiiii09

Hey everyone, i know many of you are wait for the next update of taming the devil. And I've had it written on my drafts..but I still couldn't publish it. I guess I'll tell you guys. December 2022, was my last attempt to suicide..that sadly my mom saw that night. I had this little burst out moment in front of my parents and then did this..my mom surprisingly came into my room..and that was the first time she has ever came at night. She said she was there just to check on me because I was crying alot and that was the first time they've seen me like that in years. I had harmed myself multiple times before that but that day was the most brutal..like i tried my best to give up on life..and when she came to my room I just wished for her to ignore and leave and when I saw her reaching for switch...I know I was done for..and i still remember the horror and panic on her face. I cried and told her about everything and she took me to the therepy the next day. It took months and I was getting better. And my therapist suggested me to start writing again. Well before I used to write in copies and papers but then I started writing and publishing here.

rainyrainfall

And when you get these negative thoughts of like self harming, then just think about your parents 
            Happy time, memories
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rainyrainfall

@Priiiii09 hi
            Please don't hesitate to talk to your parents they are our best advisors
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Priiiii09

@Priiiii09 But lately..that dreadful feeling is coming back. And this time I'm afraid of telling people..even my mom. I know I won't be harming myself..but I also know that my mental health is getting worse each day. 
            
            I've almost finished my college and about to get my bachelor's degree. And as soon as I get out of here, i would probably seek another therapist. But as of now, I'm barely holding myself in place. I know i shouldn't do this..but I can't help it. 
            
            Everything is too tiring and to exhausting. Even getting up from bed and eating feels like draining all my energy. But I still can't get myself to harm myself. Not after that night. 
            
            Soo I hope i would complete taming the devil and give you all a closer of this story. 
            
            And no..I've not given up on this book or my life yet..and i intend to finish this book no matter what..as for my life.. I don't have enough courage left in me to give up.
            
            Soo thank you all for your patience and reading this stupid rant of mine.
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ronda1985

Have you discontinued Taming the Devil?  You haven’t gotten back to any of your supporters/fans. Please let your readers including myself know. It only takes a minute to write a note stating yes or no. I hope all is well. You’re a great writer

Priiiii09

@ronda1985 thanks alot. I appreciate your understanding.
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ronda1985

Thank you for getting back to me. I don’t need to know why it’s none of my business but thank you. Just wondered if you were going to be able to continue the book. Sometimes life happens and it’s just not possible for authors to continue. Will keep in my library. Take your time and prayers.
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Priiiii09

@ronda1985 Hi. Thanks for reminding me that I still have to give an explanation to my readers. First of all I'm really sorry for keep you all waiting for a new chapter. I've been quite busy in my life. I got myself a job that is an hour drive away. But I quit that job recently but I still have a small business to run (I started it almost a year ago and things were down and it just started going up hill) and I'm preparing for a flee market. Soo I'll start posting as soon as it ends. That in a couple of weeks. Thank you for your patience. Please take it as a break from y side. I promise you all to make it satisfying to everyone reading this book.
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