CW// Death mention and Technoblade
I'm not going to lie. When I first saw "So Long Nerds," I sobbed. After all, who didn't? A legend that I was so incredibly lucky to have lived in the same lifetime passed away. After the first initial day, I blocked it out. I thought, if I could just pretend he was there; naive thoughts like "he's gonna post sometime. You know how his sleep schedule is." It almost felt like a dull ache in the back of my mind, albeit ever-present. It hadn't really hit me till now if I'm going to be completely honest. I didn't dare stop to think that he was really gone, and now, it all feels so unforgivingly raw. Now that one year has passed, I'm embarrassed to admit that I'm finally processing his death and what it meant. No more "Starting the streeeeam," or "HEH?!" Yet even though the healing process has just begun, I'm ready. In the end, I find it ironic I avoided it so long. Grief was on the line of delusions and remembrance.
Because through it all, Technoblade will never truly die.
Kings were meant to rule, and he played (plays) the part well.