To my big sister,
It's been a year since our last conversation. It was the most saddest thing I ever had here- losing my connections with you.
Do you remember the first day you suddenly asked me to become your online little sister? I still clearly remember it and how I felt when you asked me that. And I also remember how happy we are when we become online siblings. That's when I meet you... and I called you "Ate Princess"
We've chat always in your meme book to see how chaotic we are together. But sometimes I went a bit rude, and I didn't meant to hurt you- yet you still understand me... even you're not okay. Now, this reminds me when I remember you also call yourself Serena and I actually hate "Serena" from Pokemon and end up... sigh, that's a nightmare.
You were always here for me when I'm depressed, and I am listening to you when you want to release the heavy feeling in your chest. We laugh together, cry together, and just enjoy the obstacles that leads in our way while we solve it together.
Then that day when you suddenly left, I am deeply heartbroken. For losing such a wonderful and nice person I've ever met.. I can't, ever.. move on.
But I have to fulfill the last promise you've told me before. And your wishes you wanted to see..
"I wanted to see your name big and bold. And I hope that everyone will know you and how wonderful you are!"
Those memories are slowly fading... even the way how you say those promises.. but I know from the bottom of my heart, this is the promise you want me to fulfill for you to be happy. And I have to fulfill it no matter the cost..!
And today, I've return. I've meet more heart breaking past, it feels like it's yesterday. I stand with my own feet, and I believe these scars I have will be soon healed. I've finally become who I am today.
Ate Princess.. Ate Ayumi... thank you for being with us 'til the very end
You are not just like a rock star, nor a pop star. But... you'll always be our shooting star! We'll be the stars, Ate!
