I want to hate you, Jase. I really do. See this girl I've known for a while who's like my sister, is heartbroken. Why? Because you're not here anymore. You were her happiness, I believe you still are. She would not stop talking about you, I would want to smack her. She's so in love with you, so very in love. But you're not here. You're not here to hug her or kiss her or make her feel wanted anymore. You're not here to wipe away the tears that she's been shedding for a while now. And I want to hate you for that. Because you can't be here anymore. This girl, she's planning your wedding. Everyone probably thinks it's stupid really but don't have the heart to tell her. She's trying to be happy, she just won't accept the fact that you're really gone. So, she's trying. I think she has this thing where she thinks you're going to come back on the wedding day and you guys will live happily ever after. That's what we all hope for. But we're all watching this girl, this girl thats so mady in love with you break her own heart each time she talks about you and she doesn't even realize it. It's only been a few days but it feels like years without you. To her it must feel worse. She's strong, I know that. But she's breaking. She wants your guys wedding to be perfect, it would be the one occasion I'd wear a dress for, just for her. I'd probably give you guys a swan, you'd scream and freak out but she'd be there for you. All your guys friends would be there, just for you two. How imperfectly perfect that day would be. How imperfectly perfect you two are. Just because youre gone doesnt mean it stops. I just wish that the thing she wishes for, for you to come on the wedding date were real. That this was all just some sick joke that had us all fooled.
