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Bubba,
I know you will never be able to read this, but I just wanted to say I love you and I am fading away without you. I miss you so much, you're the best big brother a girl could ever ask for. I just close my eyes hoping that in the morning I will either wake up and it all have just been a bad dream or hoping that I don't wake up and I can be by your side in heaven, you know I'm not religious and you know I'm serious when I start talking about heaven. I miss you and I've done things since then that you wouldn't be proud of me for, I've cut, tried to kill myself and damn it I just want to be with you... I can't do this on my own bubba... I need you. I can't help but breakdown and cry... you are mine... what happened to you wouldn't leave until we were old and wrinkly. you promised me you would hold on... :'c I love you!