Ash

High school sucks big balls

Geometry is a pain in the ass and so is this school

I want to write a story but my writing fucking sucks and so does my motivation 

I'm a monster 
          I shouldn't be alive 
          I shouldn't be loved 
          I just hurt everyone I come in contact with 
          I'm not okay 
          I don't know myself anymore 
          I'm terrified of what is gonna happen next 

I fucking hate You! That's my mom! This is her house! This is my mind! Don't tell me what I feel isn't real! I want to fucking die! My mom is the only one that wants me alive! Lock me up if you want! Karma will bite you in the ass anyways!

Empty and emotionless as I stare blankly up at the ceiling, still wondering why I'm still alive and how every time someone says "I love you" I know it's a lie. 

I am totally not enjoying having my Niece and Nephews live with me because they are so annoying and misbehaved 

Shoot me 

*looks at history*
          OH GOD THE NALU

When sleeping pills don't do shit