Kat

Idk what your thinking by telling me to get a shrink or whatever if u don’t understand I felt it was a threat to me n us, idk what to tell u but look where u at now. Non of it mattered before because I always thought we’d get there but what do you really have to offer me can we live off your salary can we drive your car or can I move with you can I come to u n talk about anything and everything u gonna let me lay my head in your lap when I’m too stressed but here’s the thing baby non of that mattered bc I love you and yes some things need to change and they are not all on my end I don’t need a shrink I need a WOMAN that understands that is accountable that’s willing to compromise and reciprocate feelings nd put their lover/partner  first. Just come home so we can fix the things that need to be fixed 

But if you wanna come back and fix this there has to be accountability I knew what would happen and what but it seemed like you rather explore other routes felt like the only thing I could do is help you along and push you away. And idk don’t really sound like you talking saying I need a shrink these mf u talking to don’t know me I fucking pushed u away. So u could go be happy and me braking you down would stop and I wasn’t enough for you to even find different work idk subconsciously you probably thought you belonged there I just helped get u there. And someone that’s talking about marriage wouldn’t leave when things get tough and compromise for each  kinda like putting their partners mind as ease by changing something their partner doesn’t like especially when it’s as simple as a job idk I really miss you Kaitlin I want you back I’m not the only one at fault here if u come back my actions will change words no no more questions all the time but show me your down for me get a different job and not having to gripe to get stuff done would be nice but the job gotta go 
          
          And if you don’t come back at all just know I love you hope the best for you that’s all I ever wanted for you and you to want better for yourself 

And for the record  I never hit you out of anger  there was once maybe the time u I don’t remember u either grabbed my face or slapped me before I got my teeth out an I instantly apologized n felt bad for slapping you like that  that hurt like hell then u do that it’s like automatic response 

11:11

Baby I want you so bad, I want you to come back home but first you need to understand your roll in all of this I asked you to find another job for me you knew my insecurities about the situation I said what would happen but the simple fact is no matter how much I tried I couldn’t force myself to fall out of love with you, I couldn’t stop loving you. And now I still can’t stop knowing you could possibly be gone for good I knew it was gonna hurt there might b things were not proud of after this but could be something worth trying to fix 
          Be good girly 
          Gn stranger

But hey even if you choose not to come back at least I got to be the one to help you develop your lil roar, or the first person you was driving around, the first pregnancy there’s a lot of them 

I really wish you would come back I need you to understand though WE both have things we need to work on not just me baby girl 
          But it probably won’t be like it was probably never get back what we had before I saved you lol nah moved u here but I think if where both willing to work for this and fight for US we can make it better then it was. But only if we work for it 

Baby I don’t really think I need a shrink or phycologist to tell me I got problems fuck we all do even the mf u going to to talk about your problems, my biggest problem was you didn’t really care that I felt you staying at this job would put our relationship in jeopardy, just after so long I guess I helped nudge you into somewhere you thought you belonged. I’m sorry for the way I did it and tore you down a little bit and idk maybe put you on a path you thought you wanted. I watched you drift away possibly forced it but all that was more important than your lover and I’m sorry baby that’s the way I love raw I’m not holding nothing back 100% brutally honest, I know how to love and no not sex. I loved you while coming to realization that you might wanna b there instead so I pushed u away 
          So idk about going and getting put on a endless cycle of drugs bc you think I loved you wrong. Yeah we did get a little rough playing around n shit you to, shit I’d say you slapped the shit outta me a few times n I just ate it cus we was fucking around. But you know where all my bitterness came from by now you should at least. 
          And the house work when it comes to that stuff needs to be done just do it it’s not hard never had a problem doing my fair share.
          And that’s all I ever really wanted for you was for you to have more to offer or be more independent get your license a car better job make a living fuck I was going to buy you a car so we could get your license fuck I took 3 k outta my 401k and 1900 profit share I wasn’t gonna settle for a hunk of junk but you left and let what I prophesied come to fruition so I said fuck it and give the truck back got a jeep Cherokee and four tickets to shine down at the little Caesars arena in Detroit. 

Couldn’t tell you honestly you have paper work scattered everywhere in all that stuff I know I did some things wrong and I’m sorry for that we played rough together idk I’m sorry 
          I love you Kaitlin I just hope your happy, some day maybe baby but your insurance and ssc are in the jewelry box. 
          Idk maybe we where just ment to cross paths in life not really belong to each other but just like b there for a while to grow together type thing then become strangers again 

Yeah I seen you came, good thing I wasn’t there.
          I love you, I miss you. 
          But was that all u wanted of it 
          And baby fr I think if we would have gotten you a better job/ different job non of those things would’ve been an issue I asked you to because I felt uncomfortable with you working there not just can’t make a living there but I knew there was a threat there well for me let ppl influence things and another guy to get closer to you. 
          I knew it was gonna hurt but after so long of fighting my demons trying to keep you I just pushed you away and dug in deeper. I’m set but all my insecurities can from you wanting to stay at that job but I knew this would go down kinda like this once everyone in your ear poisoned you against me I didn’t help either just felt like you was choosing a job over me. I never forced you to get another job either I made sure u mad it to work even tho I didn’t like it. I left it up to you I didn’t do u like Nikki n them fuck I wanted the best for you I wanted you to want more baby, fuck I know I have some things that could be changed or I could be better at but give me a reason to be better. When u was at Nikki’s for the first 8 months non of that going out shit mattered to u or make up or whatever what changed from then till now 
          But I am keeping all the positive test from the first time and the whole miscarriage from the second that you had in that you had wrapped up in the jewelry box so you won’t have to deal with that  I’ll keep our baby, baby 
          Gn my love