Here I go again, crying over a guy I can see for the second time in less than 4 hours. I can't act like I'm okay anymore, I'm not okay. I fell too hard again and pulled back in fear because of my past relationships. He knows I like him, I know he likes me too. I just want to go home so I can see him and tell him that I can't act like I'm okay without him anymore, I have been lying to myself saying I don't feel the way I know I do. Telling myself to be cautious when i don't need to be because I had an abusive ex who after splitting up with i question is this real or are they using me when I don't need to be scared. I want to tell him I still love him and I don't hate him. I just want to curl up with him where I know I'm safe, where I know I'll be happy. Fml I hate falling people ending up hurting myself because my ex(not him) hurt me so I'm having a hard time trusting anyone. I have the big sad
