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I need something to reeeaaaadd I'm stuck and nothing seems good 

I need advice, Im about to turn 16 and am finally after years of not really understand that what I was going through was abuse I finally accepted the fact that my dad is emotionally abusive and manipulative and is physically violent towards my brothers. I don't know what to do. I used to just keep telling myself that it's fine parents get a little mad sometimes it's normal but realizing that dad's don't just smack there children for speaking slightly out of turn, or being to busy to finish there chores. Realizing that my father calling me worthless and telling me that he's given up on me or his random burst of anger where he will throw things often breaking them just isn't normal, has really thrown me into a worse depression. I had talked to my youth group leader having barely scratched the surface and she told me to call her if something happens which I just haven't because of how quickly my dads mood changes, one second he is ready to fight to save your life and the next it feels like you need protection from him. I'm just really torn. I want to leave so badly I just can't I have 8 little siblings that I would be leaving and that is just to difficult but lately I've actually been thinking about leaving. It would screw up my whole life and I would feel like I am losing my whole family and burning that bridge it would feel like I had just become exactly what he said I would the oldest daughter who leaves and that is just too hard sometimes and I just wish someone would tell me if I should leave.

Is it bad that I call myself a reader but have never been able to fully finish reading a single harry Potter book? Or even a movie?

I have decided to come back from the dead because I have 3 friends and  real life kinda sucks

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!!!!
          
          You deserve the world! Always keep smiling, you are stronger than you think, and I believe in you and you'll find me always cheering for you.
          
          I don't care if we've only interacted once, when you wished me or I wished you, but I am superrr clingy, so we are friends now!
          
          Once again, happy friendship day and I hope you have a WONDERFUL day and life <333

I got a job... Whoever thought It was a good idea to hire me should have thought twice

Happy Easter (even though it's not going to be Easter much longer) 
          
          Am I the only one that 'happy' Easter sounds strange too?