FANDOMS HAVE RUINED MY LIFE

Hey everyone. It’s Hayleigh. I somehow forgot my password and got logged out of the account. So... if y’all want to follow me here, go ahead! 

Logging off for a while. things haven't been going to best these past couple days. Don't know when ill be back. If you need to talk find me on any other social media.
          Ig- @haybean.227
           Twitter-@jennhaylynn
          

I just want to be a little sappy for a sec.
          
          
          I know I'm not the girl you wanted. I know I won't be the one. I know my body isn't perfect. I know you want someone else. I hear that name roll off of your tongue like its sugary sweet candy. But when I hear mine. . . When I hear that name i feel jealous. Of you. Of her. Of that smile. The smile I can never seem to get. But she always does. The smile that seems to scream 'I love you'. Love you. Love. The thing I can never seem to get from you. You say you take compliments well. What a lie. I know you well enough to tell that you don't feel the same. You don't have to be sorry. I do. For bothering you. For telling you things you wouldn't like to hear from a girl like me. If we never talk again. I'm sorry. For all I've done. 

So, I had surgery on my mouth yesterday and all I've done so far:  cry sleep eat and cry some more. 

2nd season of aot is out and so are my tears. Wooooooow its sad.

hey! just wanted to say hi and...yea! ive been feeling kind of sick these past couple of weeks, then it caught up to me. had the flu and a fever at once the other day. but! im all good now. my family and i went and saw beauty and the beast and are now going to see logan! so excited!

Wow. Things couldn't get worse. Got an E on a report. Wrecked a perfectly good set of string. Cut my finger. Screamed at someone. And destroyed my entire day by stressing about mid terms. WTH. I swear there is something wrong with me.

This killing stalking shit is insane. Like, I haven't read it but from what I've heard, it's f*cked up man. 

I know not many of you are going to read this but, just for the sake of my sanity I guess I'm going to say it anyways. I know I will never have a chance with some people. I have tried countless, heartbreaking times, to get close to some people. I've tried and failed. Tried and succeeded. Tried and gave up. My life was a mess. It still is. I don't know what to do. There was one person in particular. She seemed very nice at first, so I tried to get close to her. But the only thing she did was push me away. I complimented and tried to start convorsations. She ignored and walked away. None of it made any sense to me. All I was trying to do was be her friend. That's why I've just stopped trying. If y'all don't get how hard this is, to go around every day having that thought linger in your mind? I guess it doesn't matter. I don't know why I even bother anymore. Sorry for bothering you. 

We are going to see miss peregrines home for peculiar children and I am PUMPED. I literally haven't been this happy in weeks.