@QueerX_XQueen
do i like writing? yes.
do i want to write? yes.
am i writing? NOPE HAHA!! WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM?? MOTIVATED??
I literally have like millions of stories in my head. I have an idea for an angsty Miraculous fic that I really want to write but like... I'M NOT WRITING IT???? I just???? don't?? end me or something idk <3
hope yall are having a better day than me lol love ya <3
HELLO MY LOVES
I've got this WIP story I've been writing for about two months now, and I've decided to start putting my parts out on Wattpad. It has no title and I haven't done any editing to it yet, I'm really just writing on a whim. I'd love to get feedback on it, so please feel free to leave your thoughts in the comments!!
Have an amazing day! I love you <3
hi. if you wanna be friends on roblox, drop your user below. mine is Extremebelle
i just got premium and i customized my avatar so i can look swag for yall :D
i play like constantly so if you play and want a friend just lmk (as i said, drop your user below and we can be friends!!!)
@QueerX_XQueen I made this account like 3 years ago so the name is kinda eh : Aster_predictions
@carlyandcarson33 PLEASE hashdgshshaashfg i made mine in 2017 cause i lost my previous accounts </3
@QueerX_XQueen lol I haven't played in a year and it's an account I made when I was eight but mine is CC_playsgames (CC is my initials) AGAIN I MADE IT WHEN I WAS SUPER YOUNG SO-
debating if i want to make mlb fanfics. idk if you guys would read those lmao but ive been thinking about it a bunch and i think itd be fun to write some
@carlyandcarson33 aaaaa this is very good to hear- i might write one sometime soon if i can get my life together haha <3
@QueerX_XQueen I would read them all bc there's not a lot of good mlb fics. I haven't written any bc idk if my particular audience would read it BUT IF U WRITE ONE I WILL READ IT <3
okay so hi
its been like a month or so since i last made any sort of announcement or update to my book
im sorry!!!!!!! i have a whole lot going on right now, so ima rant about it a little (basically just talking about big things that happened since i last updated)
TW: sensitive topics (mental health, depression, su!c!de, drugs & alcohol, yelling, etc.)
1- My brother got better, and I finished quarantine, only for school to be shut down a little longer. I return for a week, and then, once again, I'm sent home. Entire school is shut down now. :)
2- I got reported to my school for su!c!dal thoughts. My mom was concerned, my dad didn't believe any of it and thought it was just a "grab for attention."
3- I got put on a waiting list for a counselor and now I see multiple in-school counselors. I may possibly have depression, anxiety, and ADHD.
4- My mom yells at me for a lot of things I can't control, and I cry a lot, so then she yells more.
5- I broke up with my S/O, and it sucks. I miss them :(
6- My friend constantly talks about alcoholism and their use of alcohol, and I don't like it. I hate it, honestly. Drugs, alcohol, all of those things. They've taken too many people from me.
7- I basically lost all motivation to do anything other than sleeping, eating the same meal every day, and scrolling pinterest. Doing anything else is too much work, so I generally just stay in bed all day.
8- My grades suck. I tried to fix them, but they went back down again. I'm almost out of time to fix them. I'm so overwhelmed, and I don't know how to ask for help without just saying "do this for me."
9- While writing this, I feel like things are crawling on me. Insides my ears, along my spine, up and down my thighs. I keep scratching at the feeling and trying to brush it away, but it won't stop. I hate it.
Anyway, that's all. TW ended.
I hope you guys didn't miss me much. I'll be trying to write more from now on, but we'll see how well that goes. :D
Have a good day!! I love you!! <3
@QueerX_XQueen first of all, I'm glad you're back, and that you had the energy to post this but seriously, if you're uncomfortable around your friend who talks about drugs (I would be too, they disgust me, and have taken people from me before) then you should either talk to them about your discomfort or break off entirely. It may hurt at first, but sometimes, (this might sound a lil depressing) I think that being alone feels better than being around people like that. Remember, you can be alone, but you're never alone. There's always people who care, even if they have a hard time expressing it. And hey, there's me lol <3 And really, as long as there's still this aching inside of you, telling you that you need to get better? That's a step forward. That's a chance. If you still, even if it's hidden deep deep deep down, have this desire to get better, then you have to hold on. Take a look around you. Yes, sometimes it feels like way too much work to do anything, and we've all been there. But I want you to remember that thirty years from now, you'll be glad you made it. You'll be glad you're alive. There's always a future, even if you can't see it or it seems out of reach. One of my fav sentences in the world: "The pain that you have been feeling can't be compared to the joy that is coming" If you ever need to talk, or literally just rant, my inbox is always open <3 Love you, glad you're back, and I'm sorry for such a long reply lol
@jakari_ I'll definitely check it out soon, thanks for sharing! <3
doing your school work < writing parts to my story < scrolling Pinterest < looking at new animes or shows and putting them on a list EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I WONT WATCH THEM because im still trying to finish InuYasha
I cannot stand myself anymore. I know what I need to be doing, but I can't pull myself to do it. I have missing assignments and so many still coming, and I'm not doing it. I've been putting off writing my story, even though I really want to do it. I've been scrolling Pinterest all day every day, so every time I try to go do something, I get distracted and go on Pinterest. I've been getting a bunch of recommended shows, and I keep adding them to my list, but I'm currently watching InuYasha, and I can't watch anything else until I finish what I'm watching right now. I hate existing lol </3
Have a good day, I love you. <3
@QueerX_XQueen I hope you're doing better. We've all been there, recently I've felt the same about Ethereal. I just can't write; I don't know why. You're not alone hope you're well <3
THANK YOU GUYS FOR 15 FOLLOWERS
ITS NOT A LOT BUT ITS MORE THAN I EVER THOUGHT ID GET
DO YALL WANT A REWARD? GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS FOR WHAT TO DO FOR YALL (PREFERABLY THINGS YOU WANT ME TO WRITE BECAUSE HHH IM OUT OF IDEAS AND MOTIVATION)
that moment when your brother tests positive for covid
It's been a hellish weekend. Everything was fine, but this morning he was hit with a crapload of the symptoms. Now, as I sit alone in my house, trying to keep away from everyone, my world feels like it's falling apart. Thousands of people have died from this, but nobody seems worried about my brother. Sure, maybe it isn't that bad, but who is to say it won't get worse? I'm terrified, not only for him but for my entire family.
@QueerX_XQueen I haven't had it myself, but I have tons of close friends and family who have had it, and the only symptoms they get are that they can't taste or smell for a month. At-Risk people can get it bad enough to go to the hospital, but everyone who's had it says it was like a really bad flu, but it wasn't that bad. Make sure to wash your hands though, that makes a big difference!
@QueerX_XQueen hope he gets well. I understand. we can only hope it doesn't get worse, as bad/hopeless as it seems. we can wear masks and stuff, but we can't protect everyone. sending love and get-well-wishes <3 take care of yourself
A few updates!!! (General life stuff, no need to read if you don't want to.)
I might become a kpop fan.
I occasionally listen to some BTS and Monsta x, and I lowkey love wonho, but I don't really get into it often.
I might start by getting into BTS, since that's what most of my friends like, and then I'll try to spread out to other groups and stuff, but I don't know for sure.
I've got an amazing friend who loves kpop, she'll probably end up being like a guide to me, but I don't really know what kind of things to ask her or how I should start. If anybody is a kpop fan and has advice for me, I'd love to hear it.
Update on my mental health state and my writing:
I'm still not that great, and I don't know when I will be.
I'm falling behind in some classes and I'm just generally stressed over school.
I might be able to talk out my issues with a doctor or something soon, and then I should be able to start getting some help.
I might come back to writing soon, I kind of miss it. I've got a lot of ideas for different characters and stuff I could write, but I'm not sure what I'll do next.
Lastly, a HUGE thank you to Carly, the author of 'Ethereal' and several other wonderful stories. Those stories bring a huge spot of light on my life and it makes me excited to get on here. Carly is also the biggest supporter of my writing, and I couldn't be more thankful for that. I look forward to more chapters of your stories, and more of your messages on anything I write.
I hope you all have an amazing day! I love you so much! <3
@QueerX_XQueen hi there, i'm happy to hear you're making some progress. stay relaxed, there's no hurry, we're here for you, even if we fon't really know each other. speaking of bts and kpop, i'm not really a kpoper but i like some songs of bts, a couple of friends support them and for what i've heard and listen, stray kids, twice and blackpink are also great groups and i like some songs of them too. hope you keep getting better, keep that cute smile, it must look beautiful on you, queen ♥