♡Tired Mess♡

good morning yall 
          its been like a year and a half  lmfao

Guess whos baaaaaaaaaaackk

You just know it's getting bad again when ur back on wattpad and ur reading smut again

I'm alive
          I miss my gf 
          And my besties 
          
          I haven't finished the next chapter to either of my stories
          Ahaaaaa
          So tired
          Life is just shit and my gf and besties arw the only thing making it bearable
          
          Anyways
          How are yallll?
          I missed yall
          

sometimes when people say something that needs tone to be understood and they don't use tone tags or punctuation or emojis or anything like that, I get really confused and sometimes upset/stressed because I don't know what they mean so I have no idea if they're being sarcastic, if they hate me, or if they're supporting me because there's no tone tags or anything to indicate how they actually feel and since it's over text its so hard to tell. Please, for the love of garlic bread, use tone tags when talking to me, it helps clear up a lot of confusion and stress, thank u :') /g
           <3

KSBDJDNDH YALL
          I HAVE LIKE 2 PEOPLE THAT I LIKE AND I CONFESSED TO ONE OF THEM AND I THINK THEY SAID THEY LIKE ME BACK AND I'M FREALING THE FUCK OUT BRCAUSE IDK IF THEY WANNA DATE ME OR SOMETHING BUT LIKE ZHDBBDJDKFHDU

Y'ALL
          I GOT MY FIRST ADULT PACIFIERS WITH THE HELP OF MY FRIEND WHO ORDERED THEM FOR ME SO THAT MY PARENTS WOULDN'T FIND OUT ABOUT IT YAAAAAYY
          now imma just pray to the Lord that my parents don't snoop around in my drawers and find them 
          I have one in currently and I love it so much, it's decorated and it's so cute and I love how it feels in my mouth 
          <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I'm having a late night convo with someone who I think i have a crush on and i feel so,, happy and fluttery. My heart feels so excited and happy when they send me a text back and i just feel so,, <3<3<3<3 idk how to describe it,,
          I don't think I've felt this strongly towards someone since i was with my ex-gf (we were forced to break up cuz of homophobic parents and she moved away)
          This person makes me feel so happy. Honestly, sometimes i wish the school days would come quicker just so I can see them. even if it's just for a few seconds. They deserve the best and only the best. I want to cuddle them while holding their hand as we fall asleep. I wanna do their makeup. I wanna run my fingers through their hair and make them feel the safest they've ever felt. 
          Is this what having a crush on someone feels like? /gen
          What are these feelings? /gen
          idk
          maybe i'm just excited to have a new friend and I'm getting my hopes and feelings up for nothing
          idk
          (this was written at 1 am but I ran out of time to send cuz I'm stupid <3<3)

I think I have a crush on someone 
          I had a whole rant/vent that i was typing on my computer but my screen time ran out just as I was finishing up so yeA
          
          I'm writing this on my tablet currently 
          I'm tired and happy and fluttery-feeling and I wanna giggle and cry all at once
          I'm so exhausted but happy as well

lol I changed my username and pfp again
          I am a new person /j