imisstheoldus

Im back as I miss that one specific fanfic where Y/n took c!tommyinnit to her cottage and made him her son, took him well and fed him. I forgot the name but I miss it.

Sup

Yo???

Opened this app after 5 months or so and I was BOMBARDED with updates of authors I don't recall following

This account cringe as shit

I will never forget that bts x reader ff that I read like in 2018 where the author made me smile everytime and be friends with the bully(aka bts) and in the end I'm a fucking guardian angel and it shows how the bts members fall inlove with her and how they were so sad about her leaving them because her mission was already finished. I was so sad that entire weekend because of that mofo ending. I miss my cringe phase sm. What I hated the most there was when the author described Namjoon(the one who despised me in teh story) cried and regret everything he had done like wtf is that description I almost forgot it was a fanfiction oh God.

i was so sleepy that instead of Bnha x reader I searched Boner x reader

its so embarassing how I always try my best but my grandparents still can't accept me, Hell even my parents is disappointed for everything I've done and Idk why. Have I ever been bad? Have I done something wrong? I was so jealous to my Siblings because they all get the attention I ever wanted. The only attention I got from my own mother was when I was a child going to the stage for my medal. Thats where I only feel the attention I ever wanted, But after that it almost seem like I never existed. She always posts all of my achievement claiming i'm her child and she's so proud of me but I never felt any genuine care. I never felt any of that. Is it ebcause my siblings are boys? Should I be a boy just for you to like me better? Or is it because you hate my dead father? You married my current father for a better change but you never acknowledged me. When you were disappointed to my brother you compared me to him and said "do you wanna be like her? a nobody." .. Did you really thought of me like that? Did you really not care? was it all an act for me to do better? This is so unfair what did I ever do wrong??? I was 11 for God sake. And oh! when it was my 2nd brother's birthday, there was a family picture, I was trying to talk to you but what did you do? You pushed me away. You didnt cared if I was on the picture or not and even proudly posted it on you socials. And on your profile picture. My brothers, Father, and you. all smiling. Where am I? No where. I was on the hotel room waiting for you all to come back from your swimming that you didnt bother inviting me. You all look so happy when I wasnt in any of your picture. Why? Was I ever enough? Is it because i'm not my step-father's daughter? Is it my fault? Is it my, a 13 year old's, fault? I tried to give you my good grades and when I saw that my siblings had your attention for doing the bare ass minimum. I stopped. I did everything just for that attention and my brothers had it just for existing? Thats not fair...

I hate the fact I can't fall inlove. I CAN feel amazement on someone but thats it. I cant love them like how I love myself. I cant love them like how everyone else. I cant feel love. 
          sometimes I feel better than anyone but sometimes I want someone to fall asleep to. I wanna cuddle with someone, Kiss and dancein the rain. experience all those lovely shits with someone. But I can't. 
          I think I had this from my mom but atleast She loved my dad but what about me? I wanna be inlove. If I said naything about this to my relatives or friends they would think i'm too needy or just too young. But What if I became old and still feel like this? I cant even look at someone with the same admiration like everyone else feels from their crushes or s/o. I Wanna be inlove.

I will defend teruhashi even if yall will hate me.