I'm so sorry that I'm just dumping this out but I need to say it somewhere.. I started a relationship with this guy and he decided to make it a poly relationship with this girl that I barely knew. We've been dating for almost 9 months and he's was only here for 1.. like he started the relationship and then just vanished on us, and I've been waiting for him this entire time but he hasn't said a word in the past 7 (almost 8) months and I'm starting to lose feelings for him.. also when he brought her into the relationship- I didn't love her but I didn't want to say no because I didn't want to lose him. But I guess I have come to think of it.. I still don't think I love her though... but she is such a sweet person, and I don't want to break her heart by breaking up with them but it just doesn't feel right.. I just wish things were right.. I just wish I could love them. But it's gone and I don't know what to do.. I just need to tell them but I'm just saying no. I don't know what's going on with me. My heart wants so bad for us to just 'BE HAPPY' but I can't.. I just can't force myself to do it. I tell them that I love them but just don't mean it.. I need him to come back, I need to tell them- but I'm scared I'll just go back to faking it... I'm so sorry again- I shouldn't be dumping this on all of you, and on Wattpad of all places- but thanks for listening to me ramble.. I appreciate it.