RAVEN Madfam

MY FRIEND IS GONNA TEACH ME GERMAN SO I CAN TALK TO MY GF IN GERMAN FINALLYYY

A second ago I had 53% on my phone and it was 5:33

Egg

To myself.
          No windows.
          No roses.
          No bandaids 
          To close it
          No tape 
          No scars 
          No lines
          Across your arms
          No applesauce
          No longing.
          No screaming.
          No crying.
          No wishing you were smiling,
          No reaching out for help.
          No stopping yourself.
          No houses
          No screams
          No mirrors
          For your peace
          No blank
          For you.

@ASH_IS_VERY_GAY sorry if I sound rude but Idk if I know you or not I have a very bad memory- 

@ASH_IS_VERY_GAY oh um hi

An aqilative relm = Endless void
          *note for self

dear my parents
          Dear my mom 
          Do you understand 
          Why I'm gone?
          Dear my dad
          Why did you lie
          I get that I'm crazy
          Despite that I die.
          Maybe I'm fine.
          Maybe I'm alive.
          Maybe that's your fault
          Cause I woke up
          And cried.
          The smoky feeling
          Still applies.
          Your breathing drinks
          Are at my despise.
          And so are my goodbyes.
          

I'm sorry,
          I'm sorry mom.
          I'm sorry dad.
          I'm not the child
          That wants to be sad.
          Yet I'm sorry I feel
          Mad.
          I'm sorry I screamed.
          I'm sorry I harmed.
          I'm sorry I breathed.
          I couldn't have died alone.
          I'm sorry I left you
          Crying and sad.
          But I kinda wanna
          Know what made
          You so mad?
          I'm sorry it's burned
          Through your memories
          I'm sorry I cursed
          In my dreams.
          I'm sorry I'm 
          Your "only" child.
          Cause I'm sorry 
          He's the one
          Worth while.
          I'm sorry I'm leaving
          But arnt you happy?
          I'm just screaming
          And dieing of laughter.
          You said you loved me
          But screamed my sadder 
          You lied with all your unknown 
          Power.
          You hate me I know.
          But I love you So.
          I'm sorry I did that 
          And screamed at Bo.
          I'm sorry I breathed
          And unknown who.
          I'm sorry I'm human
          And not your daughter.
          I'm sorry it's my fucken fault
          That I'm not your damn father.
          I'M SORRY I CAN'T DO THIS.
          I'M SORRY THAT I'M DONE.
          I'M SORRY THAT I'M SCREAMING.
          I'M SORRY THAT I'M LOST.
          I'M SORRY THAT IM HERE RIGHT NOW.
          I'M SORRY THAT IM GONE.

I feel like writing this down-
          No one cares anyway So why not write some annoying shit?
          
          Ligit,while writing something down for a book-
          I feel like I experienced more fun than I ever have. In an entire blank years.
          Ligit I had so much fun writing something for November. I'm so excited for November though I'll probley die before then-
          Lmao