RIPthatSimpAyy

God really saw my 2019 and thought: "lets add ab*se, family drama, academic failure, sewer slider thoughts/attempts and borderline R00pe by someone she trusts! Yeah sounds like a solid plan!" I-

RIPthatSimpAyy

So apparently my "grandpa" was fighting with my uncle about sum unrelated stiff and suddenly he's like "It's all her fault this family is having a shitty relationship!" Because I told my 25 y/o aunt to stop acting like a brat and accept that I also have a life that doesn't revolve around her... being a shitty parent or a salty bitch, it's like damn pick struggle you Ignorant dwarf! Also he hated my granny (whom he cheated on) much more, than he cared about coming to my coming of age ceremony (its a thing for Atheist german teens). He never visits but expects to be invited. I am just so done with him and even tho he's the epitome of Ignorance, I still feel shitty that he doesn't love me and makes me responsible  like he's the only "grandpa" I have left. Omg look at me venting like i shouldn't see a psychiatrist....

RIPthatSimpAyy

well damn i be undermining myself just i cant believe that im finally suceeding at things, like: i got a good literature grade but don't tell my mum, i ace my dance crews competition but still am not satisfied even tho were like at the top spot for our category, I've noticed that this year whenever somethings going good or better than expected i fear that something worse will happen or invalidate myself and it.....