Raava

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Where did we go wrong
          Never saw it coming
          I don't even know how are we gonna move on
          Somewhere in between falling apart and figuring out what it all still means
          Can't just be friends
          It hurts way too much
          Guess that's just life
          You left me with not enough
          Pouring my heart into your cup
          And everytime I think you're done you come around
          Using me up
          Last call, oh
          Here's to the tears yeah I'm giving it up
          Last call, oh
          Cheers to the years that I was pouring my heart into your cup
          Didn't know everytime you came around I ended up wasted in love
          Last call, oh
          
          -Tinashe

An old conversation
          That you told me I'm the most important one for you
          Do you still feel the same way to me?
          When did you forget?
          An old conversation
          Remember when you told me your the biggest secret
          I was the only one who you could say it
          When did you forget?
          An old conversation that I didn't want to end
          An old conversation that I didn't want to end
          An old conversation that I didn't want to end
          When did you forget?
          When did you forget?

I fell in love with a bitch
          That's someting no one wants to know how
          She takes all of your energy
          And then takes someone else's
          I should never mind her cause she don't mind anyone
          Yeah I fell in love with a bitch
          But that wasn't something I want
          Why does she live that way?
          Ain't even able to say I love
          Is it my fault?
          
          -Raava
          09.10.21

I got a feeling
          You're coming back
          Just like you have in the past
          
          I can see it
          You're coming back
          Call me a telepath

And it goes on and on and on
          Like a never ending song

You can tell me you don't want me
          I know you can find another perfect man
          And you can go and be so happy
          You can don't mind anything what happened 'till today
          I know you've always wanted to go
          You just weren't strong enough to say what do you feel inside
          But I'm over you but still you can hurt me again
          But I'm over you but still you can break me again
          But I'm over everything we did, everything we lived, everything happened
          I'm sure I'm over you
          Even if it's a lie I still say that I'm over you
          (Fake it till you make it)
          You can be what you wanna be
          You can be everything that you couldn't be with me
          You can have the things I couldn't give
          You can be awesome, perfect, everything without me
          I know you've always wanted to go
          You just weren't strong enought to say what do you feel inside
          But I'm over you but still you can hurt me again
          But I'm over you but still you can break me again
          But I'm over everything we did, everything we lived, everything happened
          I'm sure I'm over you
          Even if it's a lie I still say that I'm over you
          (Fake it till you make it)
          But I couldn't live if you died
          Yeah, I wouldn't live if you died
          It doesn't matter if I'm over you
          Just I couldn't live if you died
          'Cause still you can hurt me again
          'Cause still you can break me again
          I'm not over anything we did, anything we lived, anything happened
          I gotta get over you
          Because it's a lie I can't say anymore..
          
          -Raava

Ben Rana. Bu yeni hesabım. 

Bayram her yıl daha az bayram gibi, yılbaşı her yıl daha az yılbaşı gibi hissettiriyor. Sevgililer gününde sevgilimiz yok, ders çalışma hevesimiz yok, paramız yok, mutlu değiliz. Her geçen gün biraz daha boş yaşayıp biraz daha monotonlaşıyoruz. Duygularımızı kaybedip ağaç gibi yaşıyoruz. Kimseyi suçlayamayınca da anksiyete problemlerimiz başlıyor. Ne böyle devam edebiliyoruz ne durdurabiliyoruz. Sonra da duygu besleyenilenlerden kaçıyoruz. Bu yeni dünya düzeni çok korkutucu.