RaccoonSmiles

Finally read Paper Doll again and hoooo boy do I want to rewrite it. It wasn't good, but I was only 14 when I wrote it so that is to be expected.

Was just chilling making tumblr posts when I had an odd sense of nostalgia for this website. I have reread all of my works (except Paper Doll I am so scared to find out what I wrote) and damn was I sad back then. I am so glad for the friends I made of this website during the pandemic. Y'all really kept me going. I'm now a college student, studying linguistics and archaeology, so that's cool I guess. I may start writing on here again, who knows. If I do start posting again it will be very different. I am in very different fandoms now, and I'll probably also post to ao3. I just like the comment system here better. Anywho, I gotta go because I'm in lecture rn lol =)

SUP BITCH
          im sorry that was mean but what up

I'm sorry to anyone I scared last night. I just needed to vent. It's just people in my life usually take note I have an issue and proceed to do nothing. I'm still here in the land of the living.

So this is life the one place I can vent anymore. My vent group chat constantly ignores me, and my friends have it way worse. So I've decided to vent to mostly complete strangers. Ummm... Let's get this started I guess.
          
          T/W Suicide
          
          I've been in bed writing suicide notes in my head. I do this a lot. The only thing keeping me here is being afraid of hurting my friends, but it's come to the stage in my friend group where I start to push them away and feel like they don't care. It happens with all my friendships. I know I'm the only reason my best friend is in this world, and I don't want to hurt him. But I keep writing them in my head. Like this person gets to tell my online friends in dead. This person gets to know they hurt me badly. This person gets to know I could never truly be myself around this person. And the whole conservative family gets to know I was non-binary and liked girls. I write these letters in my head at least once a week. I guess I just had to tell someone about it.

Dear reader,
          
          Please use they/them pronouns with me. I want to be happy, and for some odd reason they/them pronouns cheer me up. Don't worry if you mess up. I'm indifferent to she/her or he/him. It would make my day if you used they/them pronouns for me!
          
          Sincerely,
          A kid trying to figure themself out

Me: I won't read Minecraft YouTuber fanfiction! I won't read Minecraft YouTuber fanfiction! I won't-
          
          Inniter Twitter: I've come to ruin your day *drops pile of angst fanfiction on me*
          
          Me, sobbing: but- but- I just want Tommy and Tubbo to be happy is that too much to ask for

Of course, on my flipping birthday, I get into an argument with a transphobe. Like buddy get over yourself. Some people use they/them pronouns. Some people use pronouns that weren't their assigned ones. So please shut  up 
          
          Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk!
          
          (Also the guy was trying to say intersex isn't real smh)

So does anyone want to buy a Chuck E. Cheese animatronic off Etsy for $883.50 with me-

-PETITIONS TO SIGN-
          
          Black Lives Matter:
          #petitions" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">https://blacklivesmatters.carrd.co #petitions</a>
          
          Yemen:
          https://www.change.org/p/stop-the-war-and-end-the-famine-in-yemen?utm_content=cl_sharecopy_13846129_en-GB%3Av1&recruited_by_id=de194d00-ae9d-11ea-80a5-bfb03f943b2c&utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=copylink&utm_campaign=psf_combo_share_initial
          
          Russian:
          {I can't find any petitions on this; if you have one please share}
          
          Poland:
          https://www.change.org/p/mateusz-morawiecki-pass-laws-that-would-protect-lgbt-people-in-poland-and-abolish-current-anti-lgbt-laws