Rae, hello. I know that it's been quite some time since the two of us had last spoken, and i wanted to personally apologies for the lack of everything on my end. I won't pin the blame on "feeling down" as, being completely honest with myself─feeling a little bad mentally doesn't at all give me a difficult time these days.
Simply grabbing my phone and coming to your account on here, or even Discord or Pinterest, frankly does not take all that much effort─more so if i'm already on said site/app. So, i wanted to apologise for the lack of energy i have been putting in lately.
With that out of the way however. I did also want to make some form of weak attempt of telling you how much you matter to me, no matter the way I've been treating you lately!
You have an incredibly large and special part within my heart, Ilios. Whether it's simply a friendship, or a "found family" form of relationship─you have, and always will, had such a large part of my heart.
I admire you quite a lot, Rae. I'm not exactly sure if i had ever said something like that, and if i had, then i don't recall the last time i had spoken out about that fact. But either way─I genuinely do look up to you, i always have, and frankly perhaps i look up to you a bit more than i tend to with Asa and Kuya.
You're an incredible person, Rae. For plenty of different reasons, your personality, the way you somehow put peoples mind at ease just by speaking to them. The fact that you're so perfect that it's practically impossible for you to be human (alien >:[)
Never change the way you are, You're so incredibly amazing the way you are that it would be almost ridiculous for you to change yourself for somebody else. If you change yourself, make sure it's something you want.. no matter what, i'll be by your side forever─whether it's literal, or in spirit.