Rainie

Im baaaaaaaaack

Hope you’re doing well

Well damn
          That previous post wasn’t wrong
          Been diagnosed with breast cancer this year,
          Just had my right breast removed and starting chemo soon.
          I’m sorry I never finished my stories,
          Thank you for always sticking by and thank you to those who still read.
          
          Keep on being awesome 

God I read the status updates and my life just gets worse and worse as I write them.
          
          So again I haven't updated in forever now but I have good reason.
          
          Continuing from the lasr status update I lost my nan on Valentine's day this year 2018.
          And then my boy friend of almost 2 years, the guy I thought Id marry fell out of love with me.
          
          Ive been struggling for a long time now. Depression and Anxiety i realise now I was putting him first trying to keep him happy and not myself. I was an insecure mess and I dont know how he coped for so long. He didnt handle the situation so well and we no longer talk. Until he's ready. 
          
          And me? Im just surviving. Im suffering with my  depression and anxiety but also suicidal thoughts and when the person you care about most doesn't want a place in your life in the present day doesnt help.
          
          I go to CBT. Which is cognitive behavioural therapy and one of the goals I have is to start writing again even though its extremely hard.
          
          Thank you to those that have been here from the beginning.  Thank you to those who have just started reading my books.
          
          Just thank you and I will try.
          
          Its all I can do.
          
          Much love
          
          Rainie x

@RainieUndead thank you for updating us and I'm sorry about your loss and your health:((( xoxoxo♡♡♡

@RainieUndead thank you for updating us and I'm sorry about your loss and your health:((( xoxoxo♡♡♡♡

** PLEASE READ**
          
          Firstly I’d like to wish all my lovely readers a happy new year, I hope you all had a great Christmas too.
          
          I’m so sorry I’ve been inactive, 2017 was a very difficult year. My depression and anxiety was a an all time high. I’d lost complete interest in writing and unfortunately had to deal with the loss of two of my cats. One being very sudden at the beginning of the year  which actually helped my anxiety worsen. (He’s actually in the photos above on my profile.) And my other cat loosing her 4 days before Christmas due to cancer. 
          
          Topping that off with having my appendix removed on Boxing Day the day after Christmas for anyone who isn’t British. 
          
          So there’s a shit ton of information you didn’t need, you just want updates. I’ve started writing today and I hope to continue it.
          
          Thank you for being so so patient and sooooo supportive.
          
          I hope 2018 is the year I continue to be active and update haha.
          
          Thanks again
          ~Rainie ❤️

** PLEASE READ**
          
          Firstly I’d like to wish all my lovely readers a happy new year, I hope you all had a great Christmas too.
          
          I’m so sorry I’ve been inactive, 2017 was a very difficult year. My depression and anxiety was a an all time high. I’d lost complete interest in writing and unfortunately had to deal with the loss of two of my cats. One being very sudden at the beginning of the year  which actually helped my anxiety worsen. (He’s actually in the photos above on my profile.) And my other cat loosing her 4 days before Christmas due to cancer. 
          
          Topping that off with having my appendix removed on Boxing Day the day after Christmas for anyone who isn’t British. 
          
          So there’s a shit ton of information you didn’t need, you just want updates. I’ve started writing today and I hope to continue it.
          
          Thank you for being so so patient and sooooo supportive.
          
          I hope 2018 is the year I continue to be active and update haha.
          
          Thanks again
          ~Rainie ❤️

Hope you continue my redneck angel I love it 

Just sending my apologies once again about not updating in a while. 
          With my anxiety I'm actually finding it hard to get back into writing which is something I love. 
          
          I'm sorry I'm so bad at updating. :/