Rainy Joi

i'm going to murder my friends
          
          they all told me that the gvn threat was real and that teachers were confirming it, since i wasn't at school today 
          
          BUT THE SUPERINTENDENT SENT OUT AN EMAIL (6 HOURS AFTER IT HAPPENED???) SAYING IT WAS A FALSE ALARM
          
          so ignore my last two announcements, my friends were exaggerating what happened and i believed them :')

follow up to my last announcement: the lockdown at my school is over, according to my friends. and it was real, they found a kid with a fucking gun.

i stayed home from school today because i had a doctor's appointment 
          
          then i started getting spammed by several of my friends
          
          my school is currently on lockdown and the police are searching for a reported gvn
          
          why do i always miss everything exciting?

when you're just chilling and your heart decides to explode and start beating 250 times per minute: 
           #supraventriculartachycardia B)

me and my friend (the other car nerd guy) sit next to each other in one of our ELA classes, and today we were watching a movie in it. the number "69,000" kept coming up, and every time someone would say it we would both say "nice" in unison
          
          sometimes i forget that i'm 16 and that i'm supposed to be mature

me: *sends video to my friend of a 4 year old kid hitting me with plastic bowling pins because i had nursery duty today at my parents' church*
          
          him: You are with your people
          him: You kinda look like a bowling pin
          
          me: okay? T-T
          
          him: Mostly white
          him: Red at the top
          him: And I want to hit you with something heavy

i got my passport photo taken today and in it i look like i just committed 2 felonies and are plotting 3 more. my chronic eye bags have betrayed me

just got a haircut, feeling very boy B) 
          
          i really needed this, my dysphoria has been a jerk all week T-T

soooo i may or may not have pulled a stupid (aka a transgender do not do 101) on wednesday night and worn my binder to sleep- i've already been lectured by digo about it -partially because my dysphoria was really hecking bad and partially because i'm a dumbass and wanted to see if it was "really as bad as people say it is" 
          
          and i woke up, and i felt fine, so my dumbassery continued and i decided to beat my previous "record" of wearing my binder for 13 hours, and instead wore it for 16 hours- 
          
          well, it is the next day and my ribs are violently throbbing. i probably deserve this
          
          do i have regret? yes- will i learn from my mistakes? ...probably not- 
          
          moral of the story guys, don't ever do anything i do because it's probably in the dumbass category :D

i- there's an artist on spotify- named JAR
          
           and they write parody songs off of AJR- and i just- i can't this is so freaking funny- 
          
          they've "remade" The Maybe Man (JAR's version is The Won't Guy) and OK Orchestra (aka Decent Orchestra)
          
          some of their songs from The Won't Guy include: 
          I Got Touched by a Feely Fool
          Isaac Newton
          Carl'S Going To North Korea
          I Shouldn't
          
          and in Decent Orchestra there's;
          Joe Mama
          Bong!
          Normalish People
          Hoompty Doompty
          World's Biggest Bass
          
          it's literally just this dude singing the AJR songs with really bad auto tune and off-cue background music
          
          i'm crying from laughter right now