@Rajaem74
Godzilla 2014 early marketting was amazing but holy shit they lied to us HARD
also btw, i'm actually helping a friend write a book, so if you want some of my silly writing somewhere else, check this out this is a passion project for them
https://www.wattpad.com/1580208697-fundamental-paper-tales-hello-world
what do i even do with my account on here tho
i like poly relationships more than harems ngl
Oh, yea that sounds way better when you put it like that. Thanks for the info, I'll definitely implement it in my next story.
i should just..
i've just been such a depressed annoyance to everyone and well, annoyances should be swatted away i think? i don't know if there's a saying for that.
but i'm bad at that too, like everything else, ofcourse.
@Rajaem74 do not give up pal, there is still hope out there. https://share.google/8XdjrH5xQbMHRbBjY
@Nehemiah748 well said man . @Rajaem74 There is nothing wrong to reach someone for aid, or at least unbosom your thoughts and perspectives of certain plights. And if you do not feel comfortable to talk about it with someone you are close with, just remember some of us, your followers, will gladly give you our shoulders and give our opinion/advice of what you could possible do, or if you feel down help you stand back up again.
they i deleted it anyways cus my mom found out about my account...and i panicked and then came back cus she said it was okay if i did good in highschool and i did...well until a few years ago but i redeemed myself and stuff and can go into college even tho i haven't found one for me yet..sighs...
... i feel so useless, i try so hard to work and help around the house and learn but i always just..fuck up...always the fuckup i am...yeah...yeah..
Maybe other's lives would have been better if i never came on this app in the first place...
Maybe it was better if my ideas just rotted away in my head, and i just end up being a lonely guy who nobody knows and cares about and just never exist in anyone's mind and just, yeah..
i never done anything positive with my existence on here, anyone else could have done what i have done better and people probably half i'm not unique or anything really...
you know when i saw other fanfics on my very first my very very FIRST popular wattpad account i read others i saw just how great they were and i thought "hey, maybe i can write like them and do them better cus yeah!" and then i deleted my old ones so that i could grow and improve, just like them,you know i saw how they got praise and applause and i wanted to be just like the big boys i wanted that exact level of praise i want to be looked up like a God of writing and an amazing author for once in my life i was excited and i thought it'd be easy, but now i ...
.... i think i should have just stayed in my lane and continued writing horribly for other's to eat, digest, pukes out and shitted on...atleast then, i'd be famous as the worse writer in my field and be looked back on with disgust and malice...but instead..i tried to be something that i'm not..
and that decision hurts me..
@Rajaem74 Deadass it's good to get ambitious like that. You shouldn't let any failure, setback or challenge stop you, these problems exist more in your thoughts than in reality.
i'm intelligent....
i'm just, socially inept at expressing it...
i've never had many irl all my life okay....
only people who made fun of me and who i didn't fit into....
not many knows how that affects them but..it does...hurt, alot...
i've made many mistakes that hurted other's that i probably wouldn't have if i had good social intelligence and experience and i'm..sorry..for that...
i just..i'm sorry...really..
i just
i don't wanna be good anymore....
it's too hard..
they only hurt you more if your good...
they only just, take advantage when your good and dum and silly and not that good at many thing....
and they think i don't notice because in their eyes i'm dum, well i fucking notice motherfucker, i godamn fucking notice and i hate them, i LOATHE them for it, i HATE them for it those disgusting, wretched waste of a human being.
and then you confuse them for the ones who care who don't mean any harm...and you hurt them in return....
and it hurts you inturn.