@RalphyTheWriter
If you haven't read my bio or, "Syntax Misanthropic", I've outlined the future of my presence on Wattpad on both.
TLDR: For the most part, I will no longer be active on Wattpad and the only way to contact me would be through Discord if you have any inquiries. My username is, "ralphvee" Thank you for all your support.
For anyone reading this, It's been a while since I've shed any light on the future of my stories. Just to be blunt, I have given up on writing anything original for the past couple months or so. Personally, I just don't think my skills as a literary writer are that good, even when I try my best and work hard in reading a text. I do love writing(I think), but almost everything I write down just doesn't sound good to me. It'd be logical to delete anything that I don't like and cherry pick the aspects I do like. However, while there were some aspects I did like, there were other days where I just stopped liking them and they abruptly sounded all bad after that. This wasn't a one time thing, but a continuous pattern during any story I had in mind. "Deviated Conduit" is the primary one here. In addition, I just felt like the way I described certain scenes in the story just didn't sound all that immersive or enticing. This is what ultimately lead to me deciding to quit writing and slowly develop depression. (THE SENTIMENT, NOT THE ILLNESS.) I haven't had the confidence to write at all, leaving "Deviated Conduit" in a state of limbo until I abandoned the original version and giving it the "Legacy" stamp. I can't figure out if writing is my calling or not. Sometimes I enjoy it, and sometimes I don't, which really frightens me. I can't tell if it's just me or not at this point. Hence, all this was why I am active. That being said, I don't want to just remain idle and do nothing. I've been feeling meaningless in life if I'm just not being productive, which is another mental problem I have. Thus, I have a story idea that I will POSSIBLY write. Remember work in progress fanfiction, "Bluey: an Illusioned Reality?" Sadly, I don't have plans to continue working on the original iteration, either. However, recently, I've been thinking about revamping it because of my passion for the show. I do not know when I'd start writing, but that's one glint of hope I have regarding the future.
@Gumnny_fans Aye, man. Nice seeing you here, again! I would spill the beans in dm's, but I didn't realize that Wattpad had omitted that feature. A shame, but I digress. If I'm being honest with you, there are a plethora of reasons of why I feel meaningless. It's been about four years since I've started taking literary writing seriously, and throughout that time, there were a lot of revelations that came to light, which really started to exert full forced pressure on me until I was completely flattened, like dough. 1.No one actually cared about me when I was a child. A lot of the friends I had by then just used me to poke fun at me and my tendencies. 2.I have a learning disability in both reading and writing, meaning it takes more time for me digest what I read and what I wrote down. I knew about this all my life, but it doesn't actually kick in till I....well, sit down and read/write. Part of the reason why I don't know if I could be a literary writer. 3.I tend to compare myself a lot with other people, especially those that don't care about reading/writing. They don't have to put effort, like I do, yet they can still get a lot of admiration and praise. 4.Kind of on the same thread as three. I feel underappreciated both on the work I make and as a human being. 5.People say I'm smart, but they never give me an example, even after I ask them, making that claim weightless. I think those are the major ones aside from some other detailed crumbs. Typing all that kind of started to heighten my anger. I was never an angry sort of guy, but I have given up trying to repel my depression, as it really gives me a migraine when I do. I sometimes tended to lash out to my friends, which is mostly why I put on a temporary mask before I devolve, again. As of today, I'm still waiting on therapy sessions, but that won't happen until November, sadly. My teachers have also been supportive of me, too, so that's good. If you'd like to talk more, hit me on discord, Murray! :)
@RalphyTheWriter Life can weigh you down, make you feel useless, meaningless, even not worthy of really living. But I’ve discovered this; You are one in roughly 8 billion people around the world. Nobody can truly relate to your story because it’s, well, yours. I know I’m probably not worth a thought to you, a memory of a slightly better time. And that’s okay with me. But I haven’t forgotten you. You are special, and you deserve happiness. But..the more pressure you put on yourself to find your passion, your purpose, your motivation, the harder it may become to gain such things. I do not remember how old you are, and it doesn’t matter all that much anyhow. Never give up on yourself. Missed ya, bud.
After a long hiatus, I actually uploaded something a couple of days ago! My first original story, The Teevee Head. Hopefully you'll spend some time reading the prologue and look forward to more chapters coming in the future! I worked really hard on this, and I hope you'll enjoy it!
All art you see in the story is done by one of my best friends, Goob. I don't think she has Wattpad, though. Lol.
8/25/23. I mean it this time.
7/22/23.
No, I'm not dead.
But I'm not entirely back either. It's been nearly a year since I've shed any light as to what I've been doing, what stories I have brewing in my mind, and what the future holds. To be honest, I never expected to gain the traction I've gotten over the last two years. I was simply just an aspiring writer wanting to spread the imagination of what stories can convey, Quite contradictory because I've been inactive for almost a year. While I do still want to be a writer and WILL still publish my stories here, I want to let you guys know that I've changed A LOT from before. Compared to before, I feel like I now have the necessary skills to write competent stories. Throughout my inactivity, I've learned about structure, literary devices, complexities, vocabulary, and have even started to read more than usual! It's all been very fun, but I inadvertently abandoned Wattpad as a result. That was not my intention. Furthermore, my mental health was a roller coaster throughout this past year, as well, but I won't go into detail, as I'd basically be repeating what I said in my old announcements. Lol. While no new stories may be published any time soon, I do have some original projects in the works. Of course, they'll require some tweaking and repair here and there, but I hope I leave you guys with something to anticipate. To add, I'll be checking back on Wattpad more frequently, so feel free to ask my any questions, as well! I'd be happy to enlighten you!
It's been an incredible journey, and if you're still sticking by my side, I will stick by yours as well!
I've done a bit of renovating. Like it? Hopefully y'all do, because I'm pretty impressed with it. Anyways, let me dive into the main purpose of this post.
To get the elephant out of the room, I'm well aware that I've been inactive for almost two months at this point. I am sincerely sorry for my abrupt departure. School's really been hitting more way harder than a baseball bat, especially between the last post I made, and this post. To shed some light, things haven't been as hard as they were before. Now, things seem to have calmed down. I'd describe this year, 2021-2022, as a very turbulent year. Not entirely good, but not entirely bad. Enough about that, though. That's the reason. What will happen to my planned stories. Well......To an extent....I have been working on them.....I suppose? I have good ideas for the stories, but I don't have the time to work on them like I did before. I guess I had more time because it was quarantine year, which allowed me to gain more time to write. That saddens me, because I genuinely enjoy writing. I only really started to realize my derived enjoyment for it around 2020, when I randomly came back on Wattpad just to reminisce about the stories I've read when I didn't even like reading. I've met a ton of great people as a result, and I am very grateful for it.
Nothing is set in stone, but I can tell you one thing. When everything reverts back to normal, I can promise you that one of my new stories will be published momentarily. Thank you.
I would've this post in the last one, but there is a max amount of letters you can write, lol. Anyways, here are the "cancelled" stories
1. TAWOG: The Forgotten Love (1st chapter completed)
2. Pokemon: Pikachu's Perception (1st and 2nd chapter completed)
3. FNAF: The Hidden Burden (No Chapters completed)
4. BEAR*: A Precious Life (On Technicalities)
Those are the stories that I plan to put aside, with a possibility of them being cancelled. However, none are at this point, so if you're still interesting, there is still a spark of hope.
With that said, I do have some new stories in mind that I genuinely want to write about. Two, to be exact.
The stories are:
Sonic The Hedgehog: Blazing Love
Mario Bros: Lost in the Skies.
Titles are subject to change.
Yo yo. Been a while since you and I have talked, huh? Well, I don't expect much of you to see this, as I kind of abruptly made the decision to move accounts. That's what I'm here to clear up alongside other things. I moved accounts because I personally want to leave all the comments I made on that account in the past. It was pretty babyish of me to act in such a way, and I wish to never speak of that. There is also another reason why, and it may surprise you.....I'm not exactly a Gumnny shipper anymore. HOLD YOUR HORSES, THOUGH. I still deeply respect the ship, but there does come a point where we grow out of what we love a lot. That, sadly, was the case. Again, I still have respect for it.
With that said, why have I been gone?(Yes. I'm aware i've said this a lot. Life just interferes with your passions, but let's overlook that for now)
The reason I've been gone was School. It hasn't treated me well lately, but I'll leave at that.
So...what does this mean for the future of my stories? Fun Fact. I've actually been writing multiple ships throughout the months. Are any of them done? Well....yeah...but I'm in a bit of a pickle of posting them. The thing is that I am very indecisive, as in one period of time, I ship certain characters, and then a couple months later, I don't. That's a problem I am personally have, and it irritates me. Does that mean I will delete them? No. No. No. I'll tell you what I'm going to do. I'll create a google doc to dedicated to the stories i've written, and put them there. That way, I'll be to just continue them whenever I feel like it, lol.
With that said, do I have any new stories in mind? Yes, I do. I have two in mind, and these characters made up my childhood with their great games. I won't say who they are yet, but I will tell you this. One of them is a ship, and the other is a grief sort of story. This plan may change, but that is where i'm out now.
Anyways, if you have any questions, comment or dm me. I hope to be more active. Bye!
MERRY CHRISTMAS