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Are you doing fine author
Ram_Lette
Ram_Lette
Hello everyone, it's been a while! I decided to continue the story, I didn't want it to be discontinued. These past few months, I wanted to focus my studies, and now that I have one month vacation maybe I could continuously write the chapters, and after that I want to make an edit of the story, re-reading it again I feel like i want to cry i could see the grammatical errors and punctuation errors on each chapters. Once again I hope you guys have a nice day!
sitisukunayuuji
@Ram_Lette YEAH YOU BACK!! I been miss you and your story. I hope you have a nice day to Ram
libras_libertas
OMFG, I love your profile name <3 Can't wait to read your stories!!
Ram_Lette
After I uploaded the last chapter, I was taking care of my grandfather who got sick. I didn't have time to write a chapter because I was busy taking care of him, It was very depressing seeing him sick whenever I have to help him eat it makes me cry seeing him like this. We don't want to bring him on a hospital because we couldn't risk that he wil get infected with COVID-19. So while my mother is away from work, me and my aunt have to take care of him. I lacked sleep and couldn't eat much, I was making sure that my grandpa gets to eat well, sleep well, and drink his medicines...
My grandfather passed away on the first day of September, It was unacceptable for me to know that he is gone, I saw how he lost his breath, before he was gone he is crying, and I have to wipe those tears away, I didn't know that was the end, he was crying before he lost his breath. I tried everything, I called out the neighbors and check his impulse and that's how they said it "He is gone." I told them to call an ambulance, and they do this CPR thing. They told me a lot of things, that we must prepare a funeral right away. I cried, my cousin and my uncle came right away at the house along with my mother. Atleast my grandfather's finally reunited with my grandmother in paradise.
Sleepless nights and lack of eating, everything that happened is still repeating on my head. I could remember every single detail on that day, and I feel so helpless because I feel that I didn't do much. I tried my best, making sure everything is fine. But it wasn't and it breaks me that I lost myself.
libras_libertas
@Ram_Lette I just found your account, and while i don't know you, i really hope you're doing better. My heart goes out to you! <3
Aqua-the-idiot
@Ram_Lette Hey , sorry I am one day late. I am sorry that you had to lose your grandpa. I have never lost anyone important to me so I might not feel the pain you felt or are feeling. It's the cycle of life , people have to die at the end and you shouldn't blame yourself. I am sure your grandpa wanted you to be happy. As you said , I am sure he is happy in heaven with your grandmother. You did everything you could have , and that's good. Please don't blame yourself. If you are stressed and aren't able to focus on the story it's okay. If you want to abandon it , you can. Sure us readers will be sad but your mental and physical health matters more. It's completely your choice if you want to continue it or want to abandon it. Whenever I feel low , I do something that will distract my mind. Maybe you should try to do something that you like ( maybe continuing the story , drawing , reading books , cooking etc.. ) Please take care of yourself , I am sure your grandparents want you to be happy. Take your time to get yourself together , I believe in you. You are strong and I am sure you will succeed. Have a great day ( PS. I apologise for my spelling/grammar mistakes English is not my first language. )
Ram_Lette
A lot of thing happened, and.... I'm sorry for disappearing
Ram_Lette
I always keep thinking maybe I should give up writing the fanfic and abandon it, instead of deleting it.
Ram_Lette
I'm really sorry for not posting a chapter guys, i got a fever and my cousin suggested for me to get rest. I'm really sorry <(_ _)>
Ram_Lette
Do you ever had trauma that gives you panic attack and sometimes making you hard to breath?
Mleina99
@Ram_Lette yes when I see a ball. Like volleyball or basketball. I maybe the baddest bitch but when it comes to those things, I feel like I'm the weakest.
Kuccaaa
@Ram_Lette 1) Try to being wake up 2.30 ish just to get a call from hospital that my dad passed away (happened 2 days ago btw). In exact moment mind/emotions just going blank, nothing, nada. It's like forecaster telling you "today will be sunny day" and me be like "oh is that so? Okay" kinda like that. And I'm ugly crying after funeral. Also happened to my late grandpa, ugly crying out of blue after a months of funeral. Delayed Grief are sucks. **TW: Bl00d** 2) Ever watch aftermath motorcycle accident? In the morning on my way to Highschool, saw the body with alot of bl00d, the road and the rider face oh. my. god. (and he still F-ING ALIVE!) just lying there hard to breath (i can hear his grugle and trying to breath, I'm right beside him, about 3-4 m ish). Arrive at class I'm crying of shock.
Ram_Lette
@Ram_Lette that must be really hard :((( but im praying that kind of trauma will be gone. It's terrifying that it would happen so sudden.
Ram_Lette
Uhhh I- If ever there's a notification of update, i accidentally publish a draft. I'm sorryl(;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)
Ram_Lette
I'm really sorry TOT, while writing the chapter 38 i accidentally pressed the publish button TTwTT
dr5amie05
@Ram_Lette i feel dumb now, kept trying to see why am i missing a chapter- Literally went on till even re-starting my phone-
Ram_Lette
Is skipping a chapters a thing :((?
Ram_Lette
I just read an interesting fact about marriage on heian period and I don't know what to say :D
smol_lonely_simp
@Ram_Lette i just found one saying that men were allowed to have several wives, while a woman could only have one husband i feel bad for women and even more since anime didn't exist that time ( all the husbandos they could've had, but never got ) :')