Fuck gender

I never thought I'd be this person 
          When I was little I use to think I would be popular with loads of bfs then get married to a man, be a stay at home mom with a perfect life 
          Im not popluar, fuck im not eben a girl anymore
          Life isntnhow i expecred
          I havent slept for 2 days, im a wirwd kid at skl, i have trounles eating properly, linda got caiffine addiction, i always feel the need to smoke and alcohol is just amazing and other stuff i do to myself 
          I dont like many people irl and skl is a constant reprat and i cant take it 

Not my step dad saying he's glad I'm a nice person
          
          
          
          I stole my mom's cigerates earlier and smoked them..
          
          
          Lol

MY TIK TOK GOT TOOK DOWN IM GONNA LOSE MAH SHIT UT WASNT EVEN BAD UN THE SLIGHTEST LIKE WTF

I hate everything.

Sometimes (most) I desperately desire to run away but the fear of trouble and murder gets in the way and way and don't have the right people to run with anyone else be like that? 

I'm dying or bordem anyone got disc 
          
          That makes em sound like a nonce, I'm not a nonce promise I know I nonce who lives down the road from me tho idk if he has wattpad idk what that has to dot with anything tho lol

I think I'm turning emo or scene or goth idk I like all them and no its not cuz my dog died the other day but bc hot people keep popping up on my fyp 

My bestfriend is getting out down tomorrow idk what to do anymore 

So um my nans dog is going to be put down on Wednesday and I don't know what to do since he's my bestest friend I've ever had and now I just wanna kms I don't even know anymore what tf I'm meant to do so if anyone knows ols do tell me

Maybe I should start an emo band well one person I ain't got willing friends and It would be wired to ask them lol 
          Any one wanna join lmao