Hello. Hi. It's 2am where I am so I should be asleep but no.
I just realised I have my actual English Language GCSEs on Tuesday 4th and Friday 7th and I'm terrified. I'll explain why.
I'm in Year 10. You normally take these exams in Year 11 at my school.
My year is split into two populations: A and B. Each population has different sets which are the classes we're put in. 1 is the highest, 6 is the lowest. In both populations, sets 1 and 2 have been told they are taking the English Language exams early. That means roughly 120 of us are taking these exams on the same day as Year 11.
I'm terrified for multiple reasons. (This is about to get really personal and I have got some home issues, so beware)
I have to revise for these exams and stress over them while also:
Caring for my dspraxic and autistic younger brother,
Helping my sister with her mental health issues and giving her advice,
Doing my chores around the house,
Doing my homework,
Taking care of my dad while he recovers from an operation,
Watching over my dog who's unwell atm,
Helping my friends when they need it (mental health or otherwise),
Figuring out what I want to do with my life and
Trying to figure out my sexuality.
I feel like I'm losing my mind and I'm writing some concerning stuff at night. I may share it in a book so you can see it because I need some advice but I might not share it too.
But yeah. Here is my word vomit that I will probably regret in the morning. Sorry to burden you guys with this.
On a positive note, IT'S PRIDE MONTH!!
I'll write something about Pride Month when I'm less anxiety ridden. Thanks for reading this mess.