@RandompersonnamedAri
Hello!
It has been what? A week? At this point, who cares!
So I know nobody will read this. But! I have been getting help for my mental problems! I hope i can get motivation to continue writting storys! I will try to give frequent updates and stuff like that.
Hope you guys have a great day!
Ever since. She died i couldn't believe it. I thought it was a dream. Ever since then, I have always been. The annoying one. The odd one. The one who never has any problems. The one who gets everything in their life. The spoiled one.
It felt like I was looking at someone else moving through my life. I feel trapped. I feel numb. Tired. But, I dont want to be me. I dont like me. I hate myself so much. I hate myself because I can't help others. I dont care about others. I don't feel empathy for them. I don't care about their problems.
And I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate myself so much.
Its numbing, suffocating, and horrible pain.
Colors and dreams things I cant distinguish. I wish I could rip someone's throat out. And hear them yell in pure pain and horror.
I just really hope that all of this isn't a dream. I can tell if its real or not!!!!
My head hurts
I feel my head spinning! I hate my life so much!
Why cant i just be happy. Why is it so hard to feel anything. Why dont i care about anyone anymore.
I sometimes wish someone would rip out my ribcage
@RandompersonnamedAri Its difficult to live. I feel numb. My head hurts.
@RandompersonnamedAri Oh... I see...
Just in case this isn't a dream. Im still writing this.
So I cant distinguish what is a dream and what isn't. Im not sure if im actually dreaming or not. Has this happened to any of you guys?
@RandompersonnamedAri Yeah... Very often...
Can the sun never rise again? Im afraid of death and yet i still want to hug it with open arms. I hate how I look, I hate the way I talk, i can barely even look at myself in the mirror.
Who is that?
I tell myself, I want to end it. But forced to keep breathing. I waste people's time.
So why write this?
Im not sure anymore.
@RandompersonnamedAri of course, I care for all my friends! you're unique and special in a way that most people don't see, always be yourself, and don't ever change who you are have no shame, Sweetheart
@IMherecuzimhere thanks, It means alot to me that you actually took your time to write that. It means like ALOT to me.
@RandompersonnamedAri you write what you feel, completely normal. I felt the same, wanting to leave without saying goodbye, but afraid of doing so. You can always talk to me when you feel like it, Hon.
Its been a while! I just posted a new book and I hope people enjoy it!