I thought I would be dead by now? Like I grew up primarily in Illinois n being the sexuality that I am I always assumed I wouldn’t make it to 15-16? Don’t get me wrong I’m really glad I made it this far but it’s surreal. I never thought I’d be a sophomore in highschool, not being verbally harassed, getting over my trauma, having a girlfriend? It always seemed out of my grasp. I dunno I just thought I’d have died by now, not from a pre-existing health condition even though I have a few chronic issues just, thought I’d stop existing? This year has been wild and I’m so much less depressed than I used to be, I have friends that I know care about me (not that I didn’t before I just didn’t acknowledge them) and I go to an amazing school, I’m doing so much better it’s just insane that I’ve made it this far y’know?
