Ray_Ten
IM BACKKKKKKKK
OH MY LORDY
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Warning: imma boutta rant- I sincerely apologize if i am saying anything insulting or offensive to or about anyone. I truly don't mean it that way and i respect all who are here on this platform.
ok, so im a closet pan (pansexual) in a really conservative , homophobic, and transphobic family! (both my cousins are trans, i dont have their confidence or the type of connections they have with other people irl) Yay!
I fvkn contemplated offing myself because i met a girl and i like them and i dont know what to fvkn do and i cant even talk to them cuz that might be weird or creepy or I DONT KNOW because im having mental breakdowns and my school is like a university, we learn how we want and when we want, but im constantly pushing myself and im constantly being pushed and i think i have social anxiety AND straight up anxiety AND probably adhd or add or some other like i fidget i know to do something i CANNOT sit still i need to get up i need to do something else i- MY HEAD IS SPINNING? im just a mess at this point but tis is life im happy im calm im hallucinating im mad im crying im constantly CRYING why am i CRYING? i dont think i know how to regulate emotions i might be dying?
anygays-
sorry for the long ass vent thing up there-
@BubbleTE2,
Its all good! we got busy lives and i understand that<3 I am doing pretty okay (?) and i hope you're doing good too!<3 school's been a byotch and family's going through a few things so im not sure how im supposed to handle things anymore- but thanks for checking in on me bae!!!! luv ya<333!! (platonically, of course)
Ray_Ten
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shit man i started crying again-
emma, bun, you were sent from god and i genuinely cannot express my gratitude for you enough rn-
man why am i still crying-
O-
extra traumatization for me! my best of 10 just moved like 300km away and i have no contact with them anymore an i fr dont get life no more
i now realize i dont know how to properly express my emotions and just come off as flippant, aloof, or genuinely happy-
yall i think im crazy-
wait lemme just-
ya now im laughing-
...but at least im not just crying!
again, emma, hun, you are literally such a great person, if this were irl i think i would either try an be your friend or just plain on try an hit you up-
...sorry
(i dont mean this (hitting you up) literally, i'd probs just ask for your name and continue on being awkward in the halls whenever we pass like i am rn with the girl i have a crush on-)
not sorry-
you too good to be true <3333333
BubbleTE2
@Ray_Ten OMG!!!!!! YOUR BACKKKKKKKKKK!!! Gurl, that's insane... I'm so sorry you have to go through that sh!t. I have a lot of friends who acctually have similar things happening to them, so your not alone. <333 You can come vent to me whenever (I WILL RESPONDD!!!) if you need to ofc! First, your sexuality is yours, no one else gets to decide that. That's up to you and you only <3 Second, that sounds really rough You do not deserve to go through that, you honestly seem like an ✧･ﾟ:* amazing*:･ﾟ✧ person and no one should have to deal with something like that on their own. So, adding on to that, third, like I probably said gabazillion times () I'm here for you <3 I may be a random stranger online but I wont judge, and I'm definitely not gonna shame anyone for anything :) I realize this pain may not go away quickly, and it might be a hard journey so I can continue to check in with you if your okay with that ofc! You're dealing with these things the best you can, even though you may feel like your not the best at it. I'm supporting and cheering you on! So, please make sure to take care of yourself and make time for yourself and what you need. When you feel overwhelmed, tired, anxious, remember to breathe, take a break, listen to music, draw, read, anything that will help you find your place of calm. <3 I love you and I'm here supporting you for anything you may need <3 -Emma
