Alex

Remembering y'all today.
          I hope things are doing well, and if not, I hope they get better soon.
          I'm here if y'all would ever like to reach out.
          Much love,
          Caline

Hello. I don't know if y'all check this anymore, but I just wanted to stop by again and let y'all know that my thoughts are with you, and I was thinking of Alex at an Out of the Darkness Walk - a walk to raise awareness for suicide and depression. There's a thing where you bring a pair of shoes in place for someone who isn't here in your life anymore and write a letter to them to stick in the shoe. I brought a pair for Alex. I miss talking to her, and I'm sure y'all are too.
          My thoughts are with y'all constantly.
          Much love, and never feel hesitant to contact me, 
          Caline x

Just stopping by to let Alex, or at least her family, know that I'm thinking of y'all. Hope things are going well, and that everyone is doing okay.

Hey, Leon. I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I haven't forgotten about either of you. I really hope that you are finally starting to live life like Alex would have wanted for you.

I came across this account hoping to find a girl with amazing books, I cried for all the right reasons for Alex...please you have all my love and all my support this has truly touched me ..I'm so sorry 

I promise you that you will be able to live with the pain you are feeling right now. Please don't doubt the strength I know you have to get through this. 

@drinkcoffeeatmidnite 
          Thanks..

@RazorbladeKiss hey there :) are you Leon or her sister? Either way, I just wanted to let you know that every time I talked to Alex on chat on wattpad, she always talked about the two of y'all like y'all held the world for her. I'm probably not helping any, but I just wanted to let you know that whee loved y'all more than you think and y'all helped her stay alive longer than you can imagine just by existing. You cant change the past. I wish I could've done more, too - I wish I could've given her my number so that she could call or text me whenever she was feeling low, or that I had tried to convince her more that shes a beautiful person who deserved a place here. I know I'm just a small person across the world who probably hardly knew her, but at least I tried and you tried and I think that's just the way its supposed to be. I don't think Alex wants anyone hurting over her. That's a shitty thing to say, I know, but at least try? You know, try to hang out with your friends more or remember Alex and the good memories you had of her....  I don't know. I sick at these.speeches and whatnot. I probably didn't help at all.
          
          ... I'm sorry you're hurting, and I'm so sorry you lost your sister. Shay strong, chin up, and a bunch of other positive quotes....
          
          
          I miss you Alex...
          

I can't breathe..

It's been 2 months and i still can't get over her. I can't forget. I can't stop hurting. I hurt. Not as much as Alex but the pains all in there. Each day it gets worse. i feel like she's disappointed in me. I feel like she wanted me to see her pain. she wanted me to save her from herself. she hates me. maybe if i had just checked on her that one last night when she killed herself she wouldn't have gone through with it. Maybe if i had just listened to her and helped her and tried. i tried, yeah but i gave up. not entirely but i stopped trying as hard. i lost hope when i should've held on. i should've done so many things but i didn't. I look back and i think that i was fuck up. a dick. blind for missing so many things. i can't sleep. i can't leave the house. i hardly eat. no one understands or cares any more. they think i'm weak and fragile. maybe i am. but Alex wasn't. she was strong and beautiful and my everything. all of this doesn't make sense but i'm saying it anyway cause i am tired.
          i'm not.. i'm..