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Hello everyone!!
          
          Thank you all for the kindness from the last post, I'm doing fine rn actually haha
          
          But guess what!!
          
          I'm finally 14!! haha I feel so old huhu lmao
          
          Turned 14 today gosh everything feels idk haha
          
          So yeah I turned 14 today, thank you for the support, the kindness, I'm happy, I'm okay thank you all!!
          
          -Merin

Hi
          
          My dear readers
          
          I have been keeping something from you all
          
          It's a very much big of a deal and I just want to get it out my chest

(READ THE POST BEFORE THIS!!)
          
          So uhm with explaining first, Me and S have a complicated relationship, first of is the fact he's very much sweet, kind, overprotective (in a partner nor sibling,friend way) and he kissed me so AHAH fuck, and ever since we kissed I have not been able to contain myself, literally feel like the ideal "when teenage girls have crushes" kind of shit, we've become more close like so close that he holds my hands on public, hugs me or places his hand on my waist, we also have late night walks where we vent, rant and talk, we've done so many things.
          Yet we're not together, like we aren't, and like he has this ex partner where his still in touch and one time when I tried to borrow his jacket he said no because of her and how he would be dead if she saw me in his jacket, so ouch that hurt, next is the fact that he was worried he might not be able to contact her due to his phone breaking— that hurt as he was still so worried, concerned about her while I was like that with him, the I saw his chat where he called her babe. I broke down cried, went crazy, babbled on and on about why he was like that and cried, and blurted to my friend how he was the reason, so when he saw me he tried comforting me but couldn't because he was shooed away, next thing I know he chats me that he's sorry I met him, he's sorry that he treated me like shit, sorry that he became someone to me, sorry that we were knew eachother etc etc, and the final blow was him saying that I should stop, stop talking, messaging you, everything. 

Nee Guys!! It's me Merin, haha I'm so sorry for going quiet, I've been so busy, literally so busy. But dw we're going on break in just two days, think I'm gonna be free then so y'all might expect some new chapters!
          
          I truly apologize for not being active, and making promises about uploading only for me to go silent and not go with it! I'm sorry!!
          
          It's just that my friends or specifically S, my lil y-bro fig or now someone I see or feel like someone special haha... I can go on and on about how my life changed and how everything's going. November was so eventful, the both sweat and tears I went through were a lot, me and my group of friends has a small fall out and I, being the overthinking, always blaming myself took the toll, crying, eating like shit, my sleeping was shitty blah blah blah we all apologized reconciled and we're okay.
          
          But December 's first week of the month was where I broke. 
          
          (explanation is at the post after this!)
          
          So yes we're okay now, he's more careful, more wary of what he does, asks me if I'm okay and nowadays has been more clingy, more open with me, and recently he finally became more comfortable and let me borrow his jacket, not sure if his last partner saw it or not but he let me borrow it, and when we went to his place I was sitting down when he sat beside me, hugged me and said sorry again before hugging me tight, I told him it was fine he hummed and hugged me again and kissed me on the cheek, I chuckled and hugged him, patted his head and we then just chilled.
          
          But I've been the one clinging onto him because after December 18 he's gonna head to Russia to his Father for the whole break and won't be back till January.
          Feel free to leave a message or comment, I'll answer them, I'll be responding comments and everything so feel free to leave some!
          
          -Merin

Pookie???? Are you okay? You went ghost mode, and I miss you!!!! I loved reading your comments and messages on insta. I hope you're okay, plz come back!

What happened to you why are you so awfully quiet I really miss you pookie I love you books

Hope everything’s going well!!

Idk if any one remembers... But
          
          
          
          HAPPY BDAY REN!!!!!!!

i hope your doing okay girly!i js wanna say next year i might be moving to the pillaphines.....(yes im not joking)anyways have a great day tomoraw today and every day!

Y'all I'm so fucking shocked literally flabbergastered overwhelmed idk..
          
          So uhm I have this friend, and Ik how I'm in junior year like I'm basically under 15 years old.
          
          I want all of you to know that as much as I don't like talking behind peoples back and etc, I was told to do whatever with this information, I asked if they were comfortable they said idc loll it's fine.
          
          So, I have this friend, and she has a boyfriend who's in 10th grade and is like idk 16+ but is a minor.And I don't like agreeing with rumors that involves my friends but this one is just some what believable.
          
          The rumors contained that her and her boyfriend were doing things in school like having intercourse, there's been countless times that they were caught and countless times that condoms were also found after they left a specific place.
          
          Not just that but back in seventh grade like last year, there's a forest beside our school and in that forest they were unintentionally caught on my other friends phone doing the deed with her boyfriend. Now it's been long and me and that friend have been friends since we were in 6th grade and as much as I am respectful and supportive about her I'm just disappointed or overwhelmed.
          
          Why? well it's because she's now almost 3 months pregnant.
          
          I'm just so shocked so puzzled just idk knowing my friend that's just my age is already pregnant, I'm just so freaking shaken at her being pregnant.