RealFreak_
i saved a life. my own. am i a hero
RealFreak_
RealFreak_
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So, you know, deep down i have always had that feeling, that little light of hope that i could be a better person. But not just an ordinary better one but the very best version of myself. Not that scaredy cat who crawls under her sheets every time something starts to go wrong and no body cares to reach out a hand. A girl that who is fully self centered and ready to go. I like to put the blame on others its like the fucking easiest thing to do but now, im all alone and im not just saying that i literally have no one but an empty room in a middle of the city and am far beyond from being whom i always longed for to be. And i can not blame the room??? Im literally drowning and being self aware enough to realize this fact sucks. You know, its shitty that i regret every decision i have made and now i just simply don't think anything thoroughly. Because at the end of the day, now that my mind is so blurry that i don't have to regret? Makes no sense ik but bear w me. Or dont lol makes no difference for me anyways. So, i foolishy always thought that this or that way, things would always get back on track with me. And it somehow always did. Or i thought so. But now, its not as bright as it used to be. Now its really a deep shithole and i genuinely dont know how to deal with it. Writing it here to 14 year olds also not gonna help ik but this message board is mine so shut the fuck up. Anyways, i hope one of these days i will remember this and come back to read it as that ''ideal version of mine''. Thats the only silver lining i can hold onto. Lmao, lame right?
RealFreak_
everybody is a ghost on my page this is what i lke about here. to act like as if im talking to someone
RealFreak_
yeni hayatımın yeni bakış açıları ve üstün bir bilgi birikimi falan getirmesini beklerken saçma bir black pink ve sigara bağımlılığı dışında henüz pek bir şey katmadı bana. köşedeki havalı ve gizemli kız romantizmi de bende işe yaramadı sanırım lol akademik ve sosyal hayatım uçurumdan yuvarlanıyor
RealFreak_
en önemli sorunum da odamın çamlıca kulesine bakıyor olması. gerçekten aşırı ucube bi yapı
RealFreak_
istanbula taşınıcam yalnızlıktan kafayı yememem için arkadaşım olmak isteyen var mı yeme içme konaklama sağlarım
RealFreak_
liseden de mezun olduğuma göre uygulamayı silebilirim sanırım. yakında yetişkin sayılacak biri için imaj zedeleyici bir yer artık burası
keepupwithmyphone
iyi saat nereyse 2'ler. umarim iyisidir <3
keepupwithmyphone
@RealFreak_ bir surelik bir kaygi oldugunu dusunelim, onun disinda iyi olana sevindim <<3
RealFreak_
@keepupwithmyphone heyyy <33 bir süredir sınav kaygısı yaşıyorum biraz, onun dışında gayet iyiyim teşekkür ederim
keepupwithmyphone
iyi bayramlar canim cicim
RealFreak_
just realised that i've been acting a bit too harsh for someone who has a plushy sheep named richie
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i'll be 18 soon which makes no fucking sense
RealFreak_
@merckill well, so that was an another self expose. i guess its just that im good at acting up but its relieving to know people don't think of me like that, especially you lol and you're right, they won't kick me out with the first lights of my bday. i mean, majority of the families have that one problem kid right? its not that serious thing but still i like being sarcastic about it. as usual. oh, and my birth day is 5th of july. i will be omw to nearest bar
merckill
@RealFreak_ well, it takes you anywhere so probably the coolest of all. also, didn't know you were "such a crybaby" you always seem a bit... badass??? to me haha- i am going to assume your parents just won't kick you out when the clock hits 12am so that's a win i guess. when is your bday? last of all, anytime.
RealFreak_
kendi saçımı kestim bugün artık her şey bi tık daha kötü