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So, we found out we had a couple mice on the house. I have a cat so it should be fine and there wasn't an infestation so we were gonna be fine. Tonight, the cat found a mouse, played around with it. My cat lives in my room so I wanted to wash him quickly. So I grabbed a paper towel to catch it, it was paralyzed from the waist due to my cat, so I could catch it. Thing is, I didn't think it through, so I stood there holding a mouse in my hand covered in a paper towel as it tried to escape. I knew I had to kill it, but didn't really think how, so I started to squeeze it to stop it from escaping so I could think of how to kill it. But when a fairly big person just starts tp squeeze out of reflex, the grip is very strong. As it was being squeeze around the middle, I felt its veins pop or move, and then, the spine was just fucked. Then I panicked as I felt its bottom half inflate like a stress ball as the middle was touching the other side. Safe to say, it wasn't going to live, wrapped the mouse up, squashed the skull so it would die, then tossed it in the dumpster/trash can that the garbage truck empties. I don't feel bad or anything, but fuck my did I feel off put by it. I've almost always been aware how fragile everything is, humans, dogs, cats, they can all be broken or killed by the average human because it only takes a good blow to the head to fuck it up, or a boy hugging his mom to break a rib. But actually doing something like it feels weird, like I did something forbidden by impulse.