I am sorry.
To all my online friends here/followers.
My life is currently shitty, my parents are thinking about forbidding my hyperfixation in Bfdi, which is something that makes me happier in this life. How? Well, having characters with the same personality as me makes me.. comfortable. And listened, somehow.
But since i "only speak about bfdi" and "i cant socialize" i need to stop.
Why i cant socialize? social. Phobia. Developed by being bullied in school
I am genuinely not okay, they found out about my pinterest friends (including a huge friend i made here that i really liked talking to) and removed it. Now i cant vent,I do not have any friends so..
Idk if I am on a break, I'll just be less offline.
I am very sorry, I just dont want yall to forget me, I swear I'll warn yall when I come back. I am online rn ig?? Idk.
But the thing is, I got recently discovered with moderated depression but its growing to a severe one, which is not reversible. I have to take a stupid pill that makes me feel bad (when im only 13.)
I mean, i never think about dy1ng or anything, I just hate myself.
But my su1c1d4l thoughts are growing. But I do not have the bravery to execute them.
I really platonically love all of you , and im so so sorry, please forgive me, I think im perharps being dramatic.
Anyway, the fireafy fanfic is currently on remake because it sucks.
And I'll try being more online when im better. I may speak to yall but less.
Another thing: Im getting uncomfortable with a boy on my school who apparently likes me, but I do not feel the same. When I snap at him (because he touches me) people call me cruel, when all i am is traumatized and triggered (since i got 4ss@ulted 3 years ago, or less by a teenager. But no one did nothing because "he was autistic".) That boy keeps touching me and sending me messages, even watching bfdi because of me. Im tired.
But im okay ig, ill be strong guys
- Naomi.
