All of my philosophy is in the "Living in the lie" and my other story. As I grow up, I realized that I'm have been stuck between reality and my realization. When I'm 6 years old, I starting to see the world full of mystery that I still don't know, because I was a child back then, I ignore my realization and focus in my happiness, but if I realized it before then I should know that I am depressed for a long time. I keep looking forward and walk away from this realization I made up in my mind. But it isn't easy to move forward without learning about your behind. As long as you are living, you are leaving something that you should go back but apparently, it was too late before we realized it. I actually didn't know this that I am depressed for a long time. Do you know why I am depressed? It isn't about family, not friends but it's my surroundings. The society is a problem,