ReggieCanSwim

A friend told me journaling will make me feel better so knowing I used Wattpad as a vent place before here we are again. These are more like notes to myself I'll read later in time to acknowledge how childish and stupid I was in the past or words I don't want to forget.
          	
          	Today was alright. Not much happening. I got sick though. Classes weren't as stressful cuz Tuesday is our easiest day when it comes to school and our headteacher got sick too so we didn't have biology class. I got a 10 in maths. That was my highlight of the day. I remember a few months ago, when the selections were going on, my father told me he'll vote for who I want and it was too late.
          	
          	There's this guy in my class I'm totally head over heels but I don't know how he feels about me but most likely it's one sided. I hate how much effort into making things work just for me to have an existential crisis every time I see him. I'll talk about him a lot here so bare with me cuz I have many things to say about him. I wrote him a letter on Valentine's. I'm not sure if he pretended to read it or actually read it but he keeps saying he didn't read it and I don't know if I should believe him or not. He wrote "I accept" on it and gave it back to me. That was it. After classes he pulled me closer by putting his hand on my shoulder while we were walking and talking. 
          	
          	I tried so hard to be someone he would like in that way. I looked up on the internet for signs and stuff about this kind of things. I started to put make up on. I started to study more and do my homework specifically because I know he'll ask me to give it to him so he copies it. It's my motivation. 
          	
          	I know I'm most likely delusional. I'm well aware of that. I'm overthinking a lot and I'm at the point where I don't know when I'm overreacting or overexaggerating. I hate the way he changed my days in just 3 months. It started off as a silly crush and now I'm crying because I changed so much for a person who doesn't show any interest.

ReggieCanSwim

@aferretstolemyheart I'm Andreea and I'm from Romania. Also followed you it's reggie_can_swim13 :>
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aferretstolemyheart

@ReggieCanSwim yupss i have insta my username is _why.jay_ and my name's yijie oh yea where r u from im from singapore
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ReggieCanSwim

@aferretstolemyheart usually Pinterest and Instagram are my goes to when exchanging socials. Is there any chance you might have any of them?
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StudentGurl66666

Hey. It's me, ig.
          I don't know if you remember me, but I messaged you after seeing your account in IWAJAG. I was pretty young back then! (i know it was only like last year but it feels like it's been a lot longer.)
          I just wanted to tell you that you really helped me. I didn't have many friends back then, and you being kind and willing to talk to me helped.
          So yeah, I just wanted to thank you. I don't know if you remember me, but I want you to know that you helped me.

ReggieCanSwim

@StudentGurl66666 of course I remember you, you're the who introduced me to a fanfic and for that I'm grateful. 
            Yeah I do agree the statement that this year just felt way too long than it should've. Way too many things happened way too fast.
            ALSO if you need to talk to someone you know where to find me. I want to help you if there's anything I can do. Don't hesitate to reach out if you're willing:>
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ReggieCanSwim

A friend told me journaling will make me feel better so knowing I used Wattpad as a vent place before here we are again. These are more like notes to myself I'll read later in time to acknowledge how childish and stupid I was in the past or words I don't want to forget.
          
          Today was alright. Not much happening. I got sick though. Classes weren't as stressful cuz Tuesday is our easiest day when it comes to school and our headteacher got sick too so we didn't have biology class. I got a 10 in maths. That was my highlight of the day. I remember a few months ago, when the selections were going on, my father told me he'll vote for who I want and it was too late.
          
          There's this guy in my class I'm totally head over heels but I don't know how he feels about me but most likely it's one sided. I hate how much effort into making things work just for me to have an existential crisis every time I see him. I'll talk about him a lot here so bare with me cuz I have many things to say about him. I wrote him a letter on Valentine's. I'm not sure if he pretended to read it or actually read it but he keeps saying he didn't read it and I don't know if I should believe him or not. He wrote "I accept" on it and gave it back to me. That was it. After classes he pulled me closer by putting his hand on my shoulder while we were walking and talking. 
          
          I tried so hard to be someone he would like in that way. I looked up on the internet for signs and stuff about this kind of things. I started to put make up on. I started to study more and do my homework specifically because I know he'll ask me to give it to him so he copies it. It's my motivation. 
          
          I know I'm most likely delusional. I'm well aware of that. I'm overthinking a lot and I'm at the point where I don't know when I'm overreacting or overexaggerating. I hate the way he changed my days in just 3 months. It started off as a silly crush and now I'm crying because I changed so much for a person who doesn't show any interest.

ReggieCanSwim

@aferretstolemyheart I'm Andreea and I'm from Romania. Also followed you it's reggie_can_swim13 :>
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aferretstolemyheart

@ReggieCanSwim yupss i have insta my username is _why.jay_ and my name's yijie oh yea where r u from im from singapore
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ReggieCanSwim

@aferretstolemyheart usually Pinterest and Instagram are my goes to when exchanging socials. Is there any chance you might have any of them?
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ReggieCanSwim

Here I'm going to talking about my mini mental breakdowns while watching the Grammies so deal with me

ReggieCanSwim

Chat it's 5 20 am and all I see is ads
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ReggieCanSwim

She won I'm crying I'm so proud of her
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ReggieCanSwim

If Chappell isn't winning the best new artist awards I'll cry
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