Sometimes family is what you need and what you only need, and i wonder to myself, why am I a fuck up? To be honest man, i ain't fine, i ain't okay, and never will be, nobody cares but let me be honest, I'm scared and I'm in pain, and...i can't last any longer, the words, the hurtful words, the people yelling at me...just hurts, and I'm tired of it...so...that's why I'm ending that pretty soon, I'm tired of having panic attacks and anxiety attacks, i can't do this anymore I'm too stressed and yet there's no one to talk to, people said they where here, here for me...but not now they hate me, with every single little tiny bone in their body, some do, which is great, someone to hug and talk to, not someone that yells at me, sending me threats, your such an amazing friend, and thank you for being here, my trust with you is forever, no matter what happens threw life, hate me or not, i will always be by your side, threw the good and bad days, yes you cheer me up and thanks man, really...thank you, may God bless you a lot, may you go in Heaven, May you always be in my heart love, Esmeralda