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I never really post anything about my personal struggles om any social, but tonight I kinda feel like doing so. I have been struggling with an ed for almost a year now, and while I'm recovering it's really fucking hard; and I genuinely feel like this is the hardest thing I've ever done. And while I don't want to give up and go back to my previous unhealthy habits, sometimes I can't help but wish nothing had changed because then I wouldn't have to face all these worries, thoughts and hardships. It's stressing and so fucking scary, and I am in fact terrified of the changes this recovery journey will bring but I can't and won't give up. So this is just for me to vent but also for those who might be struggling with the same problem; no matter how alone you feel into this time of your life, you're not and I see you trying your best every single day through whatever you're facing. So don't give up, keep pushing, keep taking small steps; even baby steps towards your goal. And once in a while look behind you and actually give yourself credit for what you've reached.
Much love to anyone who will take their time reading this.