@smilesareoverrated I understand I can't say I'm dealing with what you are but I'm dealing with something to. keep a diary and write your thoughts, feelings, mindframes anything you want it helps release built up pressure everything will pan out god puts his strongest warriors through the hardest test. Maybe you are one of the strong be tough don't give in I love your books by the way keep your head held high, it will be okay By the way I just wrote a book its called Right There check it out and give me feedback and rember keep your head up don't give in byee.