Warning: Sensitive Words
I think I'm tormenting myself because I force myself to write.
I know that if every story is finished, I will be fine... again.
I have many ideas but they caused me to forget the others.
That's why I have to finish IIAB first to start writing other stories, it's the closest to the finish.
If IIAB is successfully done, I might feel better mentally.
Everything has been stressful, I don't want to give up...
I don't think I could have come this far without my non existent emotions.
If I had emotions, my mental health could be EVEN WORSE.
That's a lot, right?
And the reason IIAB is slowly having shorter chapters is because I'm not putting my issues to make the story more alive recently.
(I'm not English, hope my wording is correct. I have to check grammar rules to make sure nothing is wrong. That's why I write like I'm actually a professional English person)
There's many people in the community...
I hate to admit it but I think I'm too young to write graphic stories.
The earliest I wrote my first story was when I was 10 years old on TikTok.
(The story is currently deleted because I quit the fandom I wrote for. The story is called Playground of Regret)
Guess what?
A 10 year old; wrote about suicide, betrayal, insanity, self awareness, torture, murder...
I can't believe myself!
How did I manage to do that?
After Playground of Regret was deleted... I quit writing.
Btw at these times, I didn't know Wattpad existed.
And... boom!
I started IIAB (Ice In A Bracelet) when I found out about Wattpad.
Everything has been going well...
Until my screen time got limited.
"You have to focus on school, exams, homework!" stuff
And that's when everything slowed down.
Nights, weekends.
Because I couldn't write IIAB oftenly, I'd start to get ideas from the internet and write more.
And look where that got me...
5 unfinished stories.
If we don't count IIAB...
4 unfinished stories.
I can't finish everything.
It's my fault..!
-Eliza_Sadie
