Rant/kinda vent warning, so skip if u dw to read
Idgi, why are my parents so obsessed w getting my friends to my house or taking them somewhere or calling them or coming to my school and publicly embarrassing me like?? Every other day it feels like they are threatening me over my bad habits and stuff and they gaslight me alot too like when I wanted to tell them I was feeling self conscious of my weight they gaslit me into thinking that my insecurity is me not caring for/trusting my family??? When I tried to come out as bi to my mom, she told my dad, and I was banned from using my phone, hanging out w friends, and reading for a while. And my dad yells at me day in day out everytime I leave my room I'm paranoid and feel like I'm walking on eggshells :/ I escape to the library for hours almost everyday just so I get peace of mind. And I barely have any support because I lost all my closest friends, and alot of my "friends" who I don't talk to much are homophobes and transphobes and I dislike engaging with ppl like that. My only peace is my thoughts. My health, mental and physical, is deteriorating slowly, and idk what to do about it. I'm surviving, sure, but am I living?
I'm sorry I ranted to you guys, I kinda don't have anyone else rn
Ok bai