Hush, I lost myself again but I'll remember you.
Sometimes I fell that it'll be better not to exist. 
This life is to heavy to bear and I've already used all my strength to keep standing.
But then You come at me.  With all Your request and Demands.
You know I can't turn away.
So I help You again and again hurt myself. 
But. Is it You who's hurting myself or is it just me needing someone to push the knife.
But. I'm to tried even to think. My knees are failing me.
I'm falling. I don't have the strength to stand up anymore.
I don't even need to pray for a miracle.
Because I know I've already used all my miracle for You.
It's getting darker and darker.
I hear a sound. Is it Your laugh?
Are You finally happy?
Someone hold me, crying my name again and again. 
But. I can't hear anymore. 
My eyes are failing. My ears are failing.
I just feel a touch. A Hug.
Then Nothing.
I opened my eyes. "Who are You?"
"Maybe it's better for You to forget me."
"Why?"
"I was Your past. You are the Future."
I closed my eyes.
I'm feeling sad but I don't understand why.
Maybe it's time to wake up.
She was standing there all alone but so proud. It's was blinding.