I'm not feeling too great rn and I had some kinda impulse to put that here, i feel so lost and inadequate for reasons I can't begin to comprehend. I never thought I'd feel this much pain for someone else in my life and I feel as if no matter how much support I've given and comfort I've provided, it's not gonna be enough. So, yeah, I don't really care if this is never seen but I had to get it off my chest.