Hey everyone.
It's been a very long time since I posted anything. There are lots of things that happened this year, some good days and some bad days. It's been hard really hard for me to get back into writing even after all these years. There are days where I'll feel motivated to write something, but once I do finish a draft and read it over, I can't help but feel that it's just not good enough or that it's just terrible. Like, who would wanna read any of these stories? There's nothing interesting about the settings, the ideas, or the characters. None of it just feels good enough for anyone to read. I know I shouldn't care so much about what other people think and that I will make mistakes along the way, and it's all about improving as you go, but even then, I just hesitate and can't get that horrible feeling to just go away.
I really do want to write stories and characters that people can connect with or can just enjoy reading about in general. There are so many books and stories I love that inspire me. I wanna write because I love to, and it's also for me a way to connect with people, to share something I'm passionate about with others.
So before the new year starts, I want to make a decision, and I want to make sure this is one I'm going to stick by. Do I really actually wanna start writing on here again and for others as well as myself? Am I truly willing to work hard and do my best to improve as I go? Does writing really matter that much to me? On the 31st of December, I'll post my decision.
I know I've kept everyone waiting, and for that, I'm very deeply sorry. I am really thankful for those who have supported me and gotten me to where I am. I wouldn't have gotten that far if it weren't for any of you. Thank all of you so much. I promise that the next decision I make, I'm going to do my absolute best to stick by it.
Have a good rest of the holidays and a very happy new year. See you all soon.
