Rin-sshi

Why can't it be me?

Rin-sshi

my message board in wattpad has always been my safe space ranting about my personal experience in life whether it would be a shitty one or a good day
          
          
          I just wanna let it all out, why am I such a failure in life. Like I got a job for the past year gained nothing out of it and the moment I resigned my family's treatment over me has changed. They say they are not forcing me or anything to still continue working but by their wording they dont seem happy to support what i want to rest and just be here at home, like failing college entrance exams wow I am soo happy that Im too embarrassed to tell you guys that the daughter you guys had that was once a high achiever cannot even pass a single cet she had taken and had wasted a year of her life and soon after another year as well because she wasn't able to achieve anything
          
          like I'm sorry I'm like this and I wasn't able to meet any of your expectations, I don't want to be like this as well
          
          God just make things better for me please and I'll grab the opportunity, I wont waste it

Rin-sshi

I've had my faults with me not gaining anything, to add more that we are struggling financially. Who wants to be in this kind of status let's be honest, Im gonna try and commission arts hopefully it works out so that i can contribute here and as well achieve something out
            
            planning on retaking the CETS and adding more universities on the list while im gonna rest for the next school year just god dont make this any harder for me
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Rin-sshi

I wanna quit work, I dont know what to do with life and I am extremely unhappy. If I don't pass my college entrance exam I feel like that would be one of my breaking points in life. I just wanna study man and be happy. I dont want to repeat what I felt when i was younger. I am just hoping for better days