@RiotsLXS
my "friend" just told me i should kill myself. i dont know what to do.
it still fucks with my head how you came up out of the blue to post this comment even after what i said. not saying that it didnt make me happy to think someone might've actually cared, its just i wasnt expecting you.
if you can read this, then i love you. yes, all of you. even the ones.. who i said i didnt in the past.. and cant till read my stuff. i went throught the list, and i love you.
it doesnt matter what happened in the past, or what we're like now. it doesnt matter what will happen, or what we plan to do. all i know is that right now in this very time space I Love You.
good night, oceania. <3
we might have to give away our cat.
my mum's husband keeps threatening us with it. he keeps saying that he'll kill it. mum doesnt do anything about it. he already abuses the cat if it does something bad when we're asleep.
i can't keep up. i can't keep up with any of it.
i feel better.
i once was offered a hug from someone i didnt particularly like. i hugged them anyways and it was actually a good hug. me, being the touch starved person i am, really enjoyed it. theres just something about a hug from a strong person that just plain feels good. it feels safe and loving even if they don't love you.
hey.
due to... a few personal matters.. i'm closing my dms and i'm going to unpublish The Honey House. i know i said i would be there for anyone but i honestly just cant deal with anything right now. i might post a few short stories just to let out some of my anger or sadness but idk how thats gonna go.
i'm just so effing tired it's not even funny anymore. i can't eat, i can't sleep, i can't talk, i can't even breathe. all i can do is sit here scrolling on my phone. i've been so unproductive and i'm sorry.
i'll start responding to things and posting regularly like i said i would once i get myself together.
this goes for my instagram and twitter(even though i only started twi recently).
haha no one is gonna read this but oh well i have a few followers.
@polaroid-dreams- ♡♡ thank you once again ♡♡ it isn't my birthday. rather.. it's an ex-friend's birthday month. they never told me what day so i've just started celebrating every day. they don't know i do that, or at least they don't care, but it makes me feel better. the month has been okay so far, and better because i decided not to spend it alone yesterday(digitally alone, that is. --with covid and all). i decided that what i needed was not a break, but to be surrounded by people. you can't very well have a party by yourself, can you? while i'm still staying away from twitter and such, i've been chatting with strangers on discord and even managed to make what i think is a friend. i'm trying to be a better person and learn from my mistakes from my past friendships, and your messages mean the world. ♡♥
@polaroid-dreams- thank you so much for the support! i know it sounds obligatory for me to say that but i genuinely mean it. you're a first. i'll be sure to take your offer into consideration if anything, but i think i'll continue leaving my notifications off for awhile. i'm trying to change and rn social media isn't helping. again.. thank you so much for your support. you have no idea how much it means to me! ♡♡
Happy Birthday
dear aiden,
please cherish the one friend you have left. dont let this kill you.
baby zuko is a heart throb.
i love you i love you i love you i love you