Riptide

Hey guys, Happy Pride Month!!
          
          I genuinely fell off the face of the earth and didn't even process it. How have you all been? I don't even think people here remember me anymore 
          I'm still here and very much alive.
          2021 and 2022 have been... interesting. I'm so incredibly busy but for some reason I love it. I am so much more comfortable in my own skin and my own existence and I have a strong direction that I want my life to go in. I'm this  close to starting my actual journey towards the career and life I want to live and for once in my life I'm excited about the future.
          
          Now enough about me, I wanna talk to you guys again. Like so so bad, I miss all of you too be honest, I keep thinking of the friendships I had on here and smiling because they were the most incredible things to happen to me.
          How has wattpad been treating you guys. I ask this specifically because of the change in ownership. (I don't like the fact that a hybe is on here paying writers to write stories about idols but oh well)
          
          I don't really know how I could bring back online pride tbh, I exhausted my ideas in 2020 and I was stuck in a rut last year. My exams are cutting straight through June so your dude is VERY stressed.
          
          Either way point of this was that my gay ass is still here and I love you guys so much and I'm sorry for disappearing. 

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYONE!!

Helloooo
          My new account is @Riptide_anaklusmos16 please go follow it because this account will be closed soon!

I realize that I disappeared without a word so here's a couple updates
          
          My mental health has started affecting me physically and the stress of last year and this year is making everything worse but I'm working on it
          
          I have a partner now so wow, they're incredible, more than I could've asked for
          
          I decided that I'm not capable enough to handle this year's pride, I had some plans but due to things popping up I couldn't go through with it.
          
          My plans with the account took a quick 180 and I'm no longer leaving Wattpad, instead I will make a new account that has people blocked.
          
          I got my vaccine yesterday and the side effects are annoying but it's okay.
          
          Anyways I think that's all the updates for now.
          
          How are you all? I haven't spoken to you guys in ages, I apologize for disappearing but I needed a break

YAY HARRY WON but still the grammys are a racist awards show.
          BTS deserved the award, that was some bs.

I don't know if I can stay on wattpad, no one probably cares but yeah
          Maybe I should move to another social media, I don't really know. I thought about ao3 but I can't do that because aoé doesn't really allow the same sort of connections.
          Then I thought of twitter but twitter is way too toxic
          Maybe we can move to instagram? We can make a group chat and I can post stuff on there, I just feel like I've screwed up my chances on being on wattpad without drama. People think that I'm trying to talk about them or cause issues for them when I literally have not mentioned them in a long while, I would love to hear your thoughts on this, thank you

I am seeking advice for the current situation that I am in, please help. 
          I have morals, hence I cannot disclose more than the information I am disclosing at the moment but here is a basic summary of what happened recently. 
          
          A couple months ago, my happiness on wattpad was destroyed by about 3-4 people (I say 3-4 because I still do not know if the fourth person was just another one of the others with a new account) 
          There was a lot of drama that ensued and I was lied to left and right, my frustration built up and well multiple breakdowns later we are here.
          Everything that these people did individually hurt. It destroyed me and my ability to stay on wattpad, to stay sane. But one of them hurt substantially more because they were a friend. Someone that I would stay up at night to talk to. They got into a little bit of an issue and I decided to help along with someone else. This person seemed in a very bad situation so giving them the benefit of the doubt we helped them. 
          After a while, they stopped replying and me being confused checked in on their profile to see if they were okay. They had blocked me. In frustration I confronted them and they said that they no longer wanted to talk about the situation and that wouldn't been fine, if it weren't for the fact that situation was bigger than just me and them.
          This situation negatively and massively affected multiple people that we were friends with but they continue to stay uncooperative.
          So I do not know what to do. I lose sleep and have spiralled for such a long time because people continue to not have closure about something that they could get.
          Being on wattpad is an extremely negative experience because I am constantly being reminded of what people have done.
          I don't know what to do anymore, help please
          

Hellooo!
          It's Chaos' birthday today! She's been one of my closest friends for years and has helped me through a lot.
          Thank you @ChildOfChaos714

@RobinBear love you too Anz!!

Happy Valentine's day!